Biopsy Results / Braces Incidents / Back to Production? / Closing Dating Site Accounts
So back in mid-June, I saw a hair-doctor to inquire about several strange bald-spots suddenly appearing nearly overnight on my head several months ago. He took three biopsies of my scalp and the results are in: Alopecia areata. I'm glad to have a diagnosis that they are quite confident about. It figures, too, as the condition is more prevalent with people who have asthma or hypothyroidism. Having both those illnesses, I was probably destined to get alopecia. Anyway, I'm scheduled to meet with a dermatologist in August who will probably attempt some injections or whatever. We'll see. I hate waiting so long so I may attempt to get in to see another dermatologist sooner. I'm so tired of doctors...
Speaking of, my first few weeks with braces are behind me. The first couple days were torturous. The pain was unsettling and it took almost a week to subside. Now, with a little more than two weeks under my belt, my mouth is used to it and I'll go long periods of time where I completely forget I've got metal appliances glued to each of my teeth. I had my first big scare earlier this week when two of the brackets popped off while I was flossing. Thankfully, I was able to get into the orthodontic practice within hours to have them reattached and I was reassured that it's no big deal for brackets to pop off within the first 8 weeks because of how they were applied. They replaced them free of charge and it afforded me the opportunity to ask more questions about having braces and about how I was doing keeping them clean. It still hurts a little to bite into things so a lot of my favorite foods are still off the menu. And with the worry of more brackets popping off over the next month and a half, I'm weary of eating anything at all.
So at work, I've been enjoying having been "promoted" to being a full-time IT support person on my typical shift. I've been helping out the IT department for a year and a half now, but that was on top of being a typical factory worker which is what I was hired for. A few months back, to get some help with projects, the IT department took me away from factory production entirely and ever since I've been able to focus entirely on supporting the IT department on my shift. It's been good and a wonderful change of pace. However, it may be ending soon and I'm getting a taste of being back on the assembly line right now. Last week and this week, a guy I work with is on vacation and because we have no backup, I've been forced back onto the line to move product. I'd forgotten the stress and constant activity of it all. I'm wondering what will happen when these two weeks are over. Will the IT department even need me back?
Lastly, I'll talk a bit about being a heartbreaker. Since April right up until two weeks ago, I was a member at a couple Internet dating websites. I chatted with women, spent time improving my profile, went on a few dates, befriended a couple great people and ultimately found someone I'd like to pursue (Whom I introduced in my previous journal entry). Things got kind of hectic with those sites and at one point, I was chatting and considering my options with at least five different girls. Towards the end, it was just down to three and when I finally decided on Nicole, I had to let the other two down. I considered what I had with them all as friendships but one of them, a local girl who's a touch older than me, took it very rough. It's not like she made her intentions clear and although we had two months of messaging back and forth, it didn't get deep or personal or spark anything. At least on my end, anyway. I also hurt the other girl too, and this whole thing has made me wonder how it happened. How could these women have become so attached to me without ever meeting me? Why did I think they were just simple pen-pal friendships when they obviously thought it was more? How did that happen?
I feel bad, to put it mildly. I'm not the heartbreaker type but now here I am with two people who thought I was their next great love getting angry at me and telling me how much I messed up. I'm sorry I joined a dating website and had more than one girl talk to me at once! Nicole claimed me first in verbiage that was resolute and affirmative. She met with me face to face and came right out and said she had, quote, "romantic feelings," and wanted to pursue something exclusive. A guy likes to hear that and to be honest, the feelings are mutual for her because she made herself a visible presence in my life. She asked me out, we began hanging out, I met her best friend the other day over bowling and she genuinely wants to be with me as much as possible. That's what I'm looking for.
I hate having people mad at me because I had no clue what they were truly thinking or desiring while sitting behind computer screens and waiting for me to ask them out. In my profiles, it specifically states that I was there to make friends and meet pen-pals in addition to dating. If for two whole months you didn't ask me out and I didn't ask you out, guess what that means? But I digress. I've closed the dating profiles down and I'm going to focus on Nicole. She's been a delight so far and things can only get better. The friendships with the other girls I tried to kindle may still be there but they might be damaged beyond repair. Time will tell.
Speaking of, my first few weeks with braces are behind me. The first couple days were torturous. The pain was unsettling and it took almost a week to subside. Now, with a little more than two weeks under my belt, my mouth is used to it and I'll go long periods of time where I completely forget I've got metal appliances glued to each of my teeth. I had my first big scare earlier this week when two of the brackets popped off while I was flossing. Thankfully, I was able to get into the orthodontic practice within hours to have them reattached and I was reassured that it's no big deal for brackets to pop off within the first 8 weeks because of how they were applied. They replaced them free of charge and it afforded me the opportunity to ask more questions about having braces and about how I was doing keeping them clean. It still hurts a little to bite into things so a lot of my favorite foods are still off the menu. And with the worry of more brackets popping off over the next month and a half, I'm weary of eating anything at all.
So at work, I've been enjoying having been "promoted" to being a full-time IT support person on my typical shift. I've been helping out the IT department for a year and a half now, but that was on top of being a typical factory worker which is what I was hired for. A few months back, to get some help with projects, the IT department took me away from factory production entirely and ever since I've been able to focus entirely on supporting the IT department on my shift. It's been good and a wonderful change of pace. However, it may be ending soon and I'm getting a taste of being back on the assembly line right now. Last week and this week, a guy I work with is on vacation and because we have no backup, I've been forced back onto the line to move product. I'd forgotten the stress and constant activity of it all. I'm wondering what will happen when these two weeks are over. Will the IT department even need me back?
Lastly, I'll talk a bit about being a heartbreaker. Since April right up until two weeks ago, I was a member at a couple Internet dating websites. I chatted with women, spent time improving my profile, went on a few dates, befriended a couple great people and ultimately found someone I'd like to pursue (Whom I introduced in my previous journal entry). Things got kind of hectic with those sites and at one point, I was chatting and considering my options with at least five different girls. Towards the end, it was just down to three and when I finally decided on Nicole, I had to let the other two down. I considered what I had with them all as friendships but one of them, a local girl who's a touch older than me, took it very rough. It's not like she made her intentions clear and although we had two months of messaging back and forth, it didn't get deep or personal or spark anything. At least on my end, anyway. I also hurt the other girl too, and this whole thing has made me wonder how it happened. How could these women have become so attached to me without ever meeting me? Why did I think they were just simple pen-pal friendships when they obviously thought it was more? How did that happen?
I feel bad, to put it mildly. I'm not the heartbreaker type but now here I am with two people who thought I was their next great love getting angry at me and telling me how much I messed up. I'm sorry I joined a dating website and had more than one girl talk to me at once! Nicole claimed me first in verbiage that was resolute and affirmative. She met with me face to face and came right out and said she had, quote, "romantic feelings," and wanted to pursue something exclusive. A guy likes to hear that and to be honest, the feelings are mutual for her because she made herself a visible presence in my life. She asked me out, we began hanging out, I met her best friend the other day over bowling and she genuinely wants to be with me as much as possible. That's what I'm looking for.
I hate having people mad at me because I had no clue what they were truly thinking or desiring while sitting behind computer screens and waiting for me to ask them out. In my profiles, it specifically states that I was there to make friends and meet pen-pals in addition to dating. If for two whole months you didn't ask me out and I didn't ask you out, guess what that means? But I digress. I've closed the dating profiles down and I'm going to focus on Nicole. She's been a delight so far and things can only get better. The friendships with the other girls I tried to kindle may still be there but they might be damaged beyond repair. Time will tell.