2009 "Year In Review" Entry
A long December
And there's reason to believe
Maybe this year will be better than the last
I can't remember the last thing that you said as you were leavin'
Now the days go by so fast
So here I am at 3 AM the morning of January 1st, 2010. Wow, 2010. Twenty-Ten. Just think about that. Wow. I'll get right to it: It's been a rough year and an especially rough December. It's hard to look back on 2009 and be completely satisfied. I feel as if 2009 was a step back and a step forward. The good came with the bad and at the end of it all, what I've gained is tinged with sorrow from what I've lost or haven't achieved. As I do every year, here's a completely un-comprehensive rundown of the last twelve months in my life:
In January, we all saw Barack Obama elected President of the United States. How amazing to be alive in a time when so many people have so much hope and wonder for the future. February was the month one of my very best friends and former girlfriend, Jacalyn, decided to move to South Dakota. In March, Ryan went to Ohio to be with his girlfriend for a couple weeks, which really slowed things down around here. Not much happened to me that month.
In April, we built a garden in the backyard and I had my first encounter with Leann, one of my new favorite persons. I spent a good chunk of May in Boise with Jacalyn helping her with selling her house. I also had a happy spurt of positive financial activity with my online sales. June saw my car having strange starter issues before Ryan leaving again for Ohio.
July saw the creation of a YouTube channel shared with Ryan under the moniker, "Rose Studios." Late in the month, I began dating Leann. In August, Leann and I became a couple and had a whirlwind romance. My family also had the first of our two garage sales. During September, Leann and I went to Sunriver, Oregon, for a long weekend. Ryan, who was still in Ohio, found out he'd won a student regional Emmy.
October was our second family garage sale and Ryan's return from Ohio as well as some childhood nostalgia as the shed gets cleaned out. In November, Leann and I broke up but I got a job assembling 3D stereoscopic electronic goggles for a local outfit. Finally, in December, a lot of crap rained down upon us. My dad lost his job, my brother and I lost our goggle assembling jobs, Ryan found out he's had mono and worst of all, Blu, our treasured German Shepherd dog, died a horribly tragic death from a surprise illness.
When I write these yearly entries, I spend a little time reading old journal entries and I get a taste of all the emotions that I've experienced over the last year. One thing I can say about 2009 is that I am not the same person I was twelve months ago. Yes, my situation is remarkably similar to where I was when 2009 was beginning, but the person is no longer the same. I've been through a lot of change. I've re-entered the workforce (Even becoming my own business as far as taxes are concerned) and discovered talents for business enterprising. I've been given joy and happiness from new relationships and new friendships while experiencing the brutal heartbreak of losing a family member and watching our family abruptly change overnight. I've become a more depended-upon member of the household while striving to be independent both financially and physically. All of these events, especially those of the last few months, make me wonder how I've come through 2009 with my head on straight. I should be tattered. I should be jaded and annoyed. I should be uncomfortable and mean.
Instead, I feel zen. I feel receptive and light. A couple days ago, Ryan and I were out shopping and we found a computer printer at a Goodwill store for $5. What made it a happy moment was that he had spent the whole day running around to electronics stores and other thrift stores looking for just such a device, that could also scan documents and photos, and we'd just about given up. A disappointing end to a long, wasted day. We were driving by a Goodwill on our way home, defeated, when we decided just to peek in. Why not. Sure enough, to our complete surprise, we found that $5 diamond in the rough and we felt accomplished and rejuvenated. It's the little things lately, the happy moments, that have made me optimistic lately. I feel at peace. I feel like good things are coming. The dawn is coming and it is only darkest just now. The dawn is coming.
Resolutions? To take more care of myself in all facets of my being. From my health and financial standing to simply love and joy. I've got a lot of work ahead of me to accomplish that stuff. I want 2010 to be my year. The year. I want to be an even more different person when I write my yearly review entry in 365 days.
So, as I say every year, Happy New Year, everyone! And here's to 2010. May it not suck.
And there's reason to believe
Maybe this year will be better than the last
I can't remember the last thing that you said as you were leavin'
Now the days go by so fast
So here I am at 3 AM the morning of January 1st, 2010. Wow, 2010. Twenty-Ten. Just think about that. Wow. I'll get right to it: It's been a rough year and an especially rough December. It's hard to look back on 2009 and be completely satisfied. I feel as if 2009 was a step back and a step forward. The good came with the bad and at the end of it all, what I've gained is tinged with sorrow from what I've lost or haven't achieved. As I do every year, here's a completely un-comprehensive rundown of the last twelve months in my life:
In January, we all saw Barack Obama elected President of the United States. How amazing to be alive in a time when so many people have so much hope and wonder for the future. February was the month one of my very best friends and former girlfriend, Jacalyn, decided to move to South Dakota. In March, Ryan went to Ohio to be with his girlfriend for a couple weeks, which really slowed things down around here. Not much happened to me that month.
In April, we built a garden in the backyard and I had my first encounter with Leann, one of my new favorite persons. I spent a good chunk of May in Boise with Jacalyn helping her with selling her house. I also had a happy spurt of positive financial activity with my online sales. June saw my car having strange starter issues before Ryan leaving again for Ohio.
July saw the creation of a YouTube channel shared with Ryan under the moniker, "Rose Studios." Late in the month, I began dating Leann. In August, Leann and I became a couple and had a whirlwind romance. My family also had the first of our two garage sales. During September, Leann and I went to Sunriver, Oregon, for a long weekend. Ryan, who was still in Ohio, found out he'd won a student regional Emmy.
October was our second family garage sale and Ryan's return from Ohio as well as some childhood nostalgia as the shed gets cleaned out. In November, Leann and I broke up but I got a job assembling 3D stereoscopic electronic goggles for a local outfit. Finally, in December, a lot of crap rained down upon us. My dad lost his job, my brother and I lost our goggle assembling jobs, Ryan found out he's had mono and worst of all, Blu, our treasured German Shepherd dog, died a horribly tragic death from a surprise illness.
When I write these yearly entries, I spend a little time reading old journal entries and I get a taste of all the emotions that I've experienced over the last year. One thing I can say about 2009 is that I am not the same person I was twelve months ago. Yes, my situation is remarkably similar to where I was when 2009 was beginning, but the person is no longer the same. I've been through a lot of change. I've re-entered the workforce (Even becoming my own business as far as taxes are concerned) and discovered talents for business enterprising. I've been given joy and happiness from new relationships and new friendships while experiencing the brutal heartbreak of losing a family member and watching our family abruptly change overnight. I've become a more depended-upon member of the household while striving to be independent both financially and physically. All of these events, especially those of the last few months, make me wonder how I've come through 2009 with my head on straight. I should be tattered. I should be jaded and annoyed. I should be uncomfortable and mean.
Instead, I feel zen. I feel receptive and light. A couple days ago, Ryan and I were out shopping and we found a computer printer at a Goodwill store for $5. What made it a happy moment was that he had spent the whole day running around to electronics stores and other thrift stores looking for just such a device, that could also scan documents and photos, and we'd just about given up. A disappointing end to a long, wasted day. We were driving by a Goodwill on our way home, defeated, when we decided just to peek in. Why not. Sure enough, to our complete surprise, we found that $5 diamond in the rough and we felt accomplished and rejuvenated. It's the little things lately, the happy moments, that have made me optimistic lately. I feel at peace. I feel like good things are coming. The dawn is coming and it is only darkest just now. The dawn is coming.
Resolutions? To take more care of myself in all facets of my being. From my health and financial standing to simply love and joy. I've got a lot of work ahead of me to accomplish that stuff. I want 2010 to be my year. The year. I want to be an even more different person when I write my yearly review entry in 365 days.
So, as I say every year, Happy New Year, everyone! And here's to 2010. May it not suck.