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So just when you get comfortable being content, your brother goes off and gets stabbed. Yes it is possible to love someone and hate them at the same time. My dumbass brother really got stabbed tonight by his girlfriend. He is such an emotional drain on my parents. I think me and my Dad feel the same way on this one. I love him uncoditionally. I would die for him, and at the same time I hate him for what he is. I gotta go see him in the hospital tomorrow. This is definitely one of those not so happy Matt days. If you talk to me and I seem a bit pissy, you'll have to understand. If you try to talk to me about irrelevant problems and I go off on you, well he is your warning; Don't talk to me about bullcrap things right now, I'm feeling really honest. I got a friend going through the most unbelievable stuff right now when she doesn't deserve it, my brother got stabbed, my Mom is upset, I haven't slept well all week cause of freaking nightmares, got two of my best friends not talking to each other right now, and I got a friend with pre-cancerous cells in her cervex. The thing that haunts me is there is nothing I can do to fix any of these things and that is making my brain hurt. Notice none of this pertains to relationship blah blah crap. I am really dealing with a whole lot of anger towards a whole lot of things right now. I say all this to ask that if you see me just talk normal everyday non-important stuff right now, soon I will be open to listening to everything you need to talk about, but right now I just need a whole lot of meaningless stuff like music, coffee, socks, couches, Brian Carr, M and Ms, Will and Grace, the weather, Wal-Mart controversy, Political controversy, shoes, cell phones, Dora the Explorer, I don't know be creative.