what to do today?

[snowonmyhead]

kind of want to go to the library to pick up a book but i kind of don't want to have to do that because i'll have to deal with people.

kind of want to see a movie, curious about what it would be like in the middle of the day like this with hardly no one in the mall and to go by myself.

and there is a town meeting thing that i was thinking of going to tonight because my pols./gov. teacher wants us to see what those are like but it's in a town that i'm unfamiliar with and would probably get lost trying to find the place. also i'm dealing with social anxiety disorder and trying to fix that and don't want anything to mess that up. been on lexapro for seven days and it i am supposed to start seeing results around the 10-14 day mark, but am worried that i won't.

and i've had my lj for five days and have been able to not obsess and write like ten pages worth of stuff about this person that i like so much. some things i don't like writing about because i'll just spend like two hours going into it and feeling bad about it. and just bringing that up shows that i'm starting to crumble. hehe