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NICOLE
N
is for
Nerdy
I
is for
Intelligent
C
is for
Calm
O
is for
Outrageous
L
is for
Logical
E
is for
Earnest
What Does Your Name Mean?
kind of true^
i feel overwhelmed, yet underwhelmed, which may or may not make sense to you depending if you have ever been in the boat i am currently in.
I get so much fucking math homework; moreover, i also get some homework from high school that i have seemed to relegate to unimportance and not even do.
I believed my last paper for english 111 was a pretty good story, but apparently telling the story of what happened to you when you were dehydrated is pointless, and since i have words of affirmation as my love language when a professer tells me my story has no point except drink more water which is obvious, it makes me feel like total shit, like lower than total shit. I worked hard on that pointless paper about my pointless life and i guess since everything about me is so pointless my english teacher should have allowed me to write my short story even though it would most likely be quite long length. Why the fuck does he care if i write a 4,000 word paper instead of a 1,800 paper.. Also, who had the balls to claim that his or her writing style is the way its supposed to be. I mean i don't really have that many problems with untight prose, but who decided that tight prose is better? it angers me.
And for the underwhelmedness i am feeling: I am in a job that is boring and pointless, I do homework that is boring and pointless, my life is boring and pointless, i have no boyfriend to do boring and pointless things with and i should just go die. Seriously people, what are we living for? To get a mediocre job that you hate and waste your boring and pointless life working 60 hours a week doing something that will probably be obsolete one day anyway? I don't think that is what i want to do, so this is why i need someone to do these things that, no matter how you look at it, are boring at pointless, with.. And now the boringness has led me to try to be smart; although, it never seems to work.
if you read all this i am sorry for wasting some of your boring and pointless life with my more boring and more pointless ramblings.
<3 nicole.