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Look at me...
LOOK AT ME, when im yelling at you...its fucking clockwork...every tic, your there with the toc. reminding me of just how much life can take a turn down shit lane...Driving by with your hand out the window showing all your friends....hey...look at him....
see that broken down busted ass car sitting in the black, half burnt, charred house with no roof...still smoldering from your words earlier...Its just Me...repressing anymore feelings from being acted on...Im only doing for you...I want to..but i cant help But to protect you...I must destroy what I hold dear..My only possesion...I always thought the memories I had of you were precious...but they were the fuel that started tHis Fire...
The only thing that keeps me from being free are the thoughts of you...The thoughts that cloud my better judgement...Sometimes when i put on the mask....it makes you pay attention to my eyes...
Everything else is hidden except for my eyes... the cold stare is the only hello i can offer someone of your taste...People change....some people change for the worse...but some people try to change the past...dont try to ignore the mask...look at the pupils...into the eyes of what you created...your past cant be erased....I tried..But i couldnt get rid of you...
Keep driving by...your quick glance toward my side of the road wont go unnoticed...i would return the favor with my laser point sight...but why make your car dirty....what did it ever do to you..
All i can do is just watch you go by...and watch as the seat that i used to sit it....is filled by another... Hear the house behind me collapse? That means theres no more home to go too....what do you do when your not welcomed anywhere...
The only thing i can do is just rest this liberating piece of machinery on my shoulder and just tell myself...pray to myself that one day.....you will realize the hole i made in your gas tank while your going down the street... It travels so fast....its like watching your viens pump blood when your running...how fast the fire travels along the ground..how funny to compare it to life giving..pumping blood....
But just this once, look at me... I did this to you..