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I sat down and cried today. i think its the hardest i ever had in a long time... life just kinda hit me with a brick wall of homesickness. and it hurt. i didn't know what to do.. i didn't really know how to express it.. but i cried. and the one person i wanted to be there wasn't. i went to anna, and she was a bit of help. but its just... so hard. i don't think anyone really understands it here what its like to be so far away from home and feel like you have no one. As the saying goes... in a crowded room you still feel alone.. that's me.. i hear all these things about how people have known other people forever, or how they have friends here from home and its like... wow..where do i fit? i've friends here don't get me wrong.. and they're awesome.. its just sometimes.... there are those few times that it just hits me.. how alone i feel, and i dont' know who i can reach out to. its hard not knowing. its hard being so far away from those who know me the most. its hard.. and sometimes i want to throw my hands up and quit.. but i can't.. its not in my nature.. so what do i do? those few times i need to sit down and cry i do. alone.