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why do you lie to me? why do you do this? do you know the meaning of the words honor and self-respect? what about dignity? do you have any? why can't you just say what you mean and mean what you say? why do you always hide something or have fine print details that you don't expose until after the fact? this goes right back to WASTING MY FUCKING TIME. oh my god i'm so worn out from this. i just want it to end. when will it end? when will i never have to look at you again? i'm so tired of being "fake nice" to you. i already have to do that shit all day at work. fuck. i'm tired of pretending everything's ok. looking at you makes my stomach turn. thinking about you or hearing your name or voice does the same. i look forward to the day when those things never have to happen any more....and the day i forget your name.