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so hafro and i just had a blow-out arguement, and then we actually started talking civilly with each other...something we haven't done in a while. i suppose we've made up....for now. sometimes it almost seems like he really cares, and at all other times i could swear he just wants me to fall off the face of the earth....who knows? there's so much more i want to say, but i don't have enough patience or energy left to deal with it. i suppose small talk will continue for a while until it's convenient to argue again....at one point i didn't think there would ever come a day when i wouldn't care any more, and not long ago i kinda surprised myself when i realized my emotional walls have officially gone back up. i'm rock hard and ice cold again. i only feel anger.