Links and things
-*Blink* I had no idea "black" and "white" come from the same etymological roots in English (or at least the offline iPhone app version of Wiktionary seems to think so).
That is actually kind of beautiful on so many levels. I don't know if it's bullshit because it's been edited out of the online version, but if those words are cognates, it's highly interesting.
-Gazelles In the Garden of Allah: Homosexuality in the World of Islam is an interesting essay (although I don't know where from) about that whole boy-love culture that was still around in Jaffar's time, and also touches on some current stuff (it's still going on, but not being talked about, and not always abusive either).
And while we're there:
-Encyclopedia of Pleasure, a medieval Arabic work on love and its arts, including gay and lesbian stuff.
-Still haven't watched Saturday's Doctor Who because I hate the scriptwriter so much and haven't been able to force myself into watching his nihilistic preachy tough guy shit that's got fuck-all to do with Doctor Who, so please don't talk to me about the episode (not a word, please). Just know that I haven't seen it yet, so no spoilers. But I wouldn't be surprised if I just ended up not watching it at all, because I don't feel like being forced into doing something that'll hurt me. Like I'm pressured into a painful sexual act I will not get any pleasure out of but will be traumatised by, just because I'm dating the person who wants to do it to me. That's how much aversion I'm feeling for it right now.
-Oh, and in RL news, my pain doc is still incompetent and basically has given up on fixing my medication situation \o/ I won't even go into detail, because I'm just so apathetic right now and fuck it, fuck it all. I'm still in a blurry haze because of it, but considering the other stupid shit that's been going on IRL anyway, I'm kind of glad of the mental fuzz. I just hope I'll be able to at least write some fic. That's honestly all I want right now. Just the ability to fucking write some fic for once.
-Also, trying to proofread/edit/fix the subs ataslightangle made for Der Schwarze Husar and I only made it 20 minutes into the film. Not because the subs were that bad, but because watching early 30s German talkie Connie, unencumbered by English or any directorial control whatsoever, was just too fucking much for my ovaries. Jesus, it's hypersexual even for Connie standards. I honestly can't even tell the double entendre-y or otherwise saucy lines apart from ordinary lines because he's LITERALLY talking in a bedroom voice all throughout. He's making noises like that. FFS. There's sexiness and there's flirtiness and there's ordinary people being sexy, but he is just outrageous. He just... he constantly moves like people do when they're fucking, or talks the way do people do when they're fucking someone. Like, literally. Again, this is not fannish hyperbole, I swear; I can think of so many people being sexy and doing sexy things but that's still at the flirty, seductive stage. HE IS ALREADY OPERATING ON THE FUCK STAGE. And I think that also sort of contributes to the feeling that he doesn't take you when he comes into the room--he's taken you already. I... I think that might be it? I've wondered about that effect for such a long while and I guess that's it? It's that what causes that sort of weird time warp where the seduction part has been totally skipped and he's already balls-deep inside of you? That'd go a long way in explaining it, really.
That is actually kind of beautiful on so many levels. I don't know if it's bullshit because it's been edited out of the online version, but if those words are cognates, it's highly interesting.
-Gazelles In the Garden of Allah: Homosexuality in the World of Islam is an interesting essay (although I don't know where from) about that whole boy-love culture that was still around in Jaffar's time, and also touches on some current stuff (it's still going on, but not being talked about, and not always abusive either).
And while we're there:
-Encyclopedia of Pleasure, a medieval Arabic work on love and its arts, including gay and lesbian stuff.
-Still haven't watched Saturday's Doctor Who because I hate the scriptwriter so much and haven't been able to force myself into watching his nihilistic preachy tough guy shit that's got fuck-all to do with Doctor Who, so please don't talk to me about the episode (not a word, please). Just know that I haven't seen it yet, so no spoilers. But I wouldn't be surprised if I just ended up not watching it at all, because I don't feel like being forced into doing something that'll hurt me. Like I'm pressured into a painful sexual act I will not get any pleasure out of but will be traumatised by, just because I'm dating the person who wants to do it to me. That's how much aversion I'm feeling for it right now.
-Oh, and in RL news, my pain doc is still incompetent and basically has given up on fixing my medication situation \o/ I won't even go into detail, because I'm just so apathetic right now and fuck it, fuck it all. I'm still in a blurry haze because of it, but considering the other stupid shit that's been going on IRL anyway, I'm kind of glad of the mental fuzz. I just hope I'll be able to at least write some fic. That's honestly all I want right now. Just the ability to fucking write some fic for once.
-Also, trying to proofread/edit/fix the subs ataslightangle made for Der Schwarze Husar and I only made it 20 minutes into the film. Not because the subs were that bad, but because watching early 30s German talkie Connie, unencumbered by English or any directorial control whatsoever, was just too fucking much for my ovaries. Jesus, it's hypersexual even for Connie standards. I honestly can't even tell the double entendre-y or otherwise saucy lines apart from ordinary lines because he's LITERALLY talking in a bedroom voice all throughout. He's making noises like that. FFS. There's sexiness and there's flirtiness and there's ordinary people being sexy, but he is just outrageous. He just... he constantly moves like people do when they're fucking, or talks the way do people do when they're fucking someone. Like, literally. Again, this is not fannish hyperbole, I swear; I can think of so many people being sexy and doing sexy things but that's still at the flirty, seductive stage. HE IS ALREADY OPERATING ON THE FUCK STAGE. And I think that also sort of contributes to the feeling that he doesn't take you when he comes into the room--he's taken you already. I... I think that might be it? I've wondered about that effect for such a long while and I guess that's it? It's that what causes that sort of weird time warp where the seduction part has been totally skipped and he's already balls-deep inside of you? That'd go a long way in explaining it, really.