DID I MENTION MY MAN-WOMAN PANTHER BOYFRIEND
Well, I've just had some food and I'm hoping it'll stay inside this time. Slowly crawling out of the blurg--I think it wasn't my meds that were making me excessively sick last night, but that I ate something dodgy and got food poisoning. Or Torsten did dirty A2M on me in my sleep. It seems to have been brief rather than some bigger bug, thank fuck. But let's knock on wood. I'm also trying to get back into writing mode, so maybe rambling will help? Because I've got NEW THOUGHTS when it comes to one of my favourite topics, so here we go.
Yeah, guess what it is?
It's Connie's androgyny again. I was thinking about it again and wondering why in the hell it works even better for me than it does with some other folks and how it comes across as... stronger somehow. Like, for pretty much all my life, I've thought of The Bowie as the epitome of amazing, genderbending, magnetic androgynous sexual allure. But then there's fucking CONNIE and oh, by all the genderfucky gods that have ever existed... *swears loudly*
And I realised what one major factor in it is, for me at least. Previously, I've said that it probably comes--partially--from this thing where when you see a really androgynous person, they will also have dropped some of the qualities of their birth sex, and just moved towards the other. A woman will seem more like a boy, a man will seem like more of a girl... but I've always thought Connie stood out because he was an equal mix of both, at least when he was all grown-up. I mean, I love the lanky skinny silent Connie, but in the talkies, with the wrinkles and the receding hairline and the cad moustaches--god, I would never call him masculine because it's like those little things just emphasise the femininity of the rest of him the same way it does when a woman draws a moustache on and puts on a suit--but... I realised it might be someting to do with age. With maturity. Because in the silents, when he's younger, it's this typical androgyny I see but when he grows up, the age and him being physically very obviously a bloke because of those aforementioned physical traits and being tall as fuck--that somehow gives him more power. And makes him less youthful, and personally, my orientation reads male maturity as attractive.
And that was a bit of a revelation. Because a lot of the time, when you think of these famous androgynous people, they also kind of seem neuter, sexless to a point but also very youthful. I mean, it's not a coincidence that Bowie and Tilda Swinton have both played ageless vampires, right? You often associate androgyny with this elfin sort of agelessness, and often that agelessness is the sort of... youthful sort. It doesn't bear the traces of age or maturity except in the person's eyes and their words--the maturity comes from within; it's not manifested so much physically. There's this childlike or adolescent quality to what people associate both agelessness and androgyny with, a lot of the time. So maybe that's the thing? Not that I'm saying that any of that is bad and that it can't be fascinating and beautiful (and I even hate having to throw in that disclaimer because it's personal orientations we're talking about, for crying out loud). Because it can be that. But I suppose that with talkie Connies it's the maturity that turns me on, because I'm not so attracted to youthfulness. I mean, I can be at times, and younger people generally look prettier--I seem to mostly respond to this with women, though--but with men and with Connie in general, that maturity thing seems to be a major factor of what makes him so damn powerful for me. Like, it's not exactly the sort of mature gray panther guy type a lot of women are attracted to either, because the moment you see him walk and hear him speak and see him move his hands, it's like a woman in a man suit! And I *adore* that. (And again, remember this man's sexual aura was so powerful it made a silverback gorilla piss on him in jealous rage and I'm still fucking crying with lols about that.)
Really, that maturity and those physical signs are probably why most people won't know what the fuck when I go on about his androgyny when it's talkie Connie, because you really do have to see him move and hear him speak to get it. But... I just find it incredibly powerful and attractive. You get the dominant daddy but you also get an extra dose of woman because you bet he's wearing silk knickers underneath that tuxedo. *happysigh*
I HAVE NEVER SEEN ANYONE WHO HITS ALL MY KINKS THIS WAY IN THE SAME DAMN BODY. SEND HELP.
P.S. I don't know what Jaffar would be wearing underneath as medieval Persians wore shalwars regardless of sex, but medieval nobles such as his historical precedent didn't care all that much for the gender restrictions towards certain fabrics and ornaments. Like, technically, only women were allowed silk and gold because guys had to wait until they could wear that stuff in Paradise, but that sure as hell is all silk below the belt, so I suppose I can mentally count that as dragtastic. And he's definitely fabulous enough to carry it.
Yeah, guess what it is?
It's Connie's androgyny again. I was thinking about it again and wondering why in the hell it works even better for me than it does with some other folks and how it comes across as... stronger somehow. Like, for pretty much all my life, I've thought of The Bowie as the epitome of amazing, genderbending, magnetic androgynous sexual allure. But then there's fucking CONNIE and oh, by all the genderfucky gods that have ever existed... *swears loudly*
And I realised what one major factor in it is, for me at least. Previously, I've said that it probably comes--partially--from this thing where when you see a really androgynous person, they will also have dropped some of the qualities of their birth sex, and just moved towards the other. A woman will seem more like a boy, a man will seem like more of a girl... but I've always thought Connie stood out because he was an equal mix of both, at least when he was all grown-up. I mean, I love the lanky skinny silent Connie, but in the talkies, with the wrinkles and the receding hairline and the cad moustaches--god, I would never call him masculine because it's like those little things just emphasise the femininity of the rest of him the same way it does when a woman draws a moustache on and puts on a suit--but... I realised it might be someting to do with age. With maturity. Because in the silents, when he's younger, it's this typical androgyny I see but when he grows up, the age and him being physically very obviously a bloke because of those aforementioned physical traits and being tall as fuck--that somehow gives him more power. And makes him less youthful, and personally, my orientation reads male maturity as attractive.
And that was a bit of a revelation. Because a lot of the time, when you think of these famous androgynous people, they also kind of seem neuter, sexless to a point but also very youthful. I mean, it's not a coincidence that Bowie and Tilda Swinton have both played ageless vampires, right? You often associate androgyny with this elfin sort of agelessness, and often that agelessness is the sort of... youthful sort. It doesn't bear the traces of age or maturity except in the person's eyes and their words--the maturity comes from within; it's not manifested so much physically. There's this childlike or adolescent quality to what people associate both agelessness and androgyny with, a lot of the time. So maybe that's the thing? Not that I'm saying that any of that is bad and that it can't be fascinating and beautiful (and I even hate having to throw in that disclaimer because it's personal orientations we're talking about, for crying out loud). Because it can be that. But I suppose that with talkie Connies it's the maturity that turns me on, because I'm not so attracted to youthfulness. I mean, I can be at times, and younger people generally look prettier--I seem to mostly respond to this with women, though--but with men and with Connie in general, that maturity thing seems to be a major factor of what makes him so damn powerful for me. Like, it's not exactly the sort of mature gray panther guy type a lot of women are attracted to either, because the moment you see him walk and hear him speak and see him move his hands, it's like a woman in a man suit! And I *adore* that. (And again, remember this man's sexual aura was so powerful it made a silverback gorilla piss on him in jealous rage and I'm still fucking crying with lols about that.)
Really, that maturity and those physical signs are probably why most people won't know what the fuck when I go on about his androgyny when it's talkie Connie, because you really do have to see him move and hear him speak to get it. But... I just find it incredibly powerful and attractive. You get the dominant daddy but you also get an extra dose of woman because you bet he's wearing silk knickers underneath that tuxedo. *happysigh*
I HAVE NEVER SEEN ANYONE WHO HITS ALL MY KINKS THIS WAY IN THE SAME DAMN BODY. SEND HELP.
P.S. I don't know what Jaffar would be wearing underneath as medieval Persians wore shalwars regardless of sex, but medieval nobles such as his historical precedent didn't care all that much for the gender restrictions towards certain fabrics and ornaments. Like, technically, only women were allowed silk and gold because guys had to wait until they could wear that stuff in Paradise, but that sure as hell is all silk below the belt, so I suppose I can mentally count that as dragtastic. And he's definitely fabulous enough to carry it.