may
a few significant anniversaries just passed. sigh. not much to say about any of them, really...no 'wow look where i was a year ago' or 'wow look where i am now.' i kind of said 'oh, look what today is...huh.'
i feel like things are different already (like from the way theyve been this semester). my attitude is different. im not excitedly burning energy or thirsting for more excitement any more, im very chill. ive switched the music in my car from the awesomeness mix to the dave acoustic album. a month ago i was super pumped to go to the lake and have a high energy, girls night out, weekend o' fun. but when i got there i was really relaxed, all about just enjoying myself at a pretty even pace. it was a nice trip, though; made me want to do something like that again but branch out a little more as far as location goes. ali is home. im not really preoccupied with anything right now...nothing in particular is consuming my thoughts at the moment, no men, no huge anxieties. im reading twilight and totally emersing myself in it, which is good. my lack of concentration in the other aspects of my life is going into some good reading.
there are upcoming things to think about, however (and oddly enough, none of them are nagging me):
ill be nannying again soon, which means back to routine
breandan's wedding is a MONTH, which means the time until then is going to FLY, and i have to finalize preparations for that, figure out what the hell im going to sing and omg im going back to alaska
im really getting inspired to make serious plans for a studio in the fall
still freaked out about school but not that concerned anymore...i honestly want to work on the apartment first and then if it works out to put school on top of it, then ok, good deal.
i feel like things are different already (like from the way theyve been this semester). my attitude is different. im not excitedly burning energy or thirsting for more excitement any more, im very chill. ive switched the music in my car from the awesomeness mix to the dave acoustic album. a month ago i was super pumped to go to the lake and have a high energy, girls night out, weekend o' fun. but when i got there i was really relaxed, all about just enjoying myself at a pretty even pace. it was a nice trip, though; made me want to do something like that again but branch out a little more as far as location goes. ali is home. im not really preoccupied with anything right now...nothing in particular is consuming my thoughts at the moment, no men, no huge anxieties. im reading twilight and totally emersing myself in it, which is good. my lack of concentration in the other aspects of my life is going into some good reading.
there are upcoming things to think about, however (and oddly enough, none of them are nagging me):
ill be nannying again soon, which means back to routine
breandan's wedding is a MONTH, which means the time until then is going to FLY, and i have to finalize preparations for that, figure out what the hell im going to sing and omg im going back to alaska
im really getting inspired to make serious plans for a studio in the fall
still freaked out about school but not that concerned anymore...i honestly want to work on the apartment first and then if it works out to put school on top of it, then ok, good deal.