away and away
i can hardly believe that i have to curl in bed and read cheesy depressing stories just so that i can cry my hidden tears out.
maybe there's something wrong with me.
that's why my emo switch wasn't really working.
the switch that i turn on or off to keep my emotions in check.
yeah that one.
i can't even cry normally.
i'm refusing to accept my own feelings.
i've always been the one left behind but now,
i feel like leaving is as difficult and agonizing too.