Poems...Sorry Andy I forgot how to hyperlink everything or I would have
BLADE 1/2/05
Silver blade
So sharp and tempting
Draw my blood
Show me relief
Cut away my pain
Slice away my indecision
Vampire blade
Taste my blood
So sweet and rich
The seductive draw
Flooding to the dark
Swept to death
Take me away from here
********************************
AS ONE 1/2/05
Music pounding
People dancing
Our bodies move as one
Pounding rhythm
Slow and sensual
We are one
********************************
DROWNING 1/2/05
Calm heart
Water rises
I breathe it in
Salt stings my eyes
My heart speeds up
Darkness closes in
I'm here to die
I don't want to live
You are gone
Dead
So am I
********************************
ALONE
Shattered glass
Bright red blood
A broken home
All alone
Middle Man
Not again
The darkness calls
And she falls
Through wind she flies
And then she dies
********************************
In the darkest night
I wander alone
In search for a soul
Then there is your light
Beautiful and bright
You're here with me now
The night doesn't seem
so dark
********************************
I'm on the verge of screaming
I cannot take this anymore
I need you here
For my arms to hold
My whole body
Yearns for your touch
I need you here
To hold me tight
********************************
Eyes like the sky
Hair like the night
Skin touched by the sun
And a smile so bright
In his strong hands
He holds my heart
In his loving arms
He holds my body
In himself
He has my love
I cannot stand
To see him cry
To see him hurt
I'd rather die
But I'll be with him
Forever more
If just to see his smile
I love him
********************************
Two broken hearts
Who'd never love
Found each other
And fit like a glove
Your heart with mine
Is one complete
And I know those others
Were obsolete
********************************
INTRO 2/25/05
I have nothing to write
No words flow from my pen
The well of my creativity is running dry
I'll write a short trilogy
About the three of us
We are different
We are the same
********************************
ZAIANDE 2/25/05
Beautiful and confident
Wild and fun
She is forceful and seductive
A number one tease
Born to roleplay but now
She is more
The body she is in
Would change if she took over
She scares me
She is me
********************************
CHRISTINE 2/25/05
Pretty and smart
But low self-esteem
Sometimes submissive
But usually happy
She makes everyone feel at ease
Her friends say she changes
They say it's bad
Maybe it's because Zaia and I are here
She doesn't care what people think
She is herself
********************************
KIAELYN 2/25/05
The depressed artist
My work is not very good
But I do it anyway
I don't tkae over often
But a lot recently
I'm always waiting
Always writing
I had a poem about the moon
I forgot it
I am restless
********************************
DIAMOND GIRL 2/25/05
We three are one
We share one body
Thre faces of the same girl
Like a diamond
Beautiful and strong
Cut just right
To make her shine
Her smile lights up a room
She something special
We are the diamond girl
********************************
3/20/05
The darkness calls
My heart is listening
Follow your heart into the dark
And you'll find the light of your life
I did
********************************
NORTHERN LIGHTS
Crisp cool air
Darkness all around
Night sounds echoing
A beautiful clear night
The glowing haze
Shifts and slithers
Forms a green ribbon
A snake in the sky
The color runs
Spikes of red and blue
Rain down
The Northern Lights
Fill the sky
I stare in awe
Colors fade
They dissipate
And all that's left
Is the memory
Of a glowing ribbon
On a velvet blanket
Surrounded by diamonds
********************************
THE EX
Muddled feelings
Confusing thoughts
Unable to voice them
Broken heart
Painful memories
How do I control my feelings?
What do I do?
I love him
But I can't, I won't
Be with him again
********************************
AFTERMATH OF MY MISTAKE 4/27/05
Every minute that passes
With every tick of the clock
My fear grows
I fear that when I come back
My bed will be empty
The love I found will be gone
You'll have gone away
What if you are gone?
When will I see you again?
Will I see you again?
What will I do?
Please God help me
Help me fix this
What do I do?
Dear God I need him
Please lead me in the right direction
Show me how to win his heart
Tell me how to show my love
********************************
He sits there
Like a shining god
Doting on you
His queen
Who wouldn't though
The sight of you
Freezes me in place
I cannot speak
I cannot breathe
The heat of lust
Washes over me
My heart pounds
Blinding me
Defening me
I temble and sweat
My want for you
Is so strong
It nearly kills me
You'll be the death of me
********************************
A cold, dark hand grips my heart
and fear washes over me
********************************
SOMETIMES I HATE YOU 6/5/05
I hate the way you make me feel
I hate the way you look at me
The look that says "You're a disappointment"
"You'll make all the wrong decisions"
Look at yourself in the mirror
You hypocrite
You can't control me
That's what I want but you've got me under your thumb
Sometimes I really hate you
Don't give me relationship advice
You can't stay in one yourself
You push everyone away
EVERYONE
Things have changed
Get used to it
I'm growing up
Let me go
I'm not your prisoner
Sometimes I really hate you
********************************
DON'T YOU HATE IT? 6/10/05
Don't you hate it when someone uses you
And you're not even their's to use?
Don't you hate when you've fallen for their charms
'Cause you think they've fallen for you?
Don't you hate when you hide it inside
Then the voices start talking to you?
Don't you hate when you let it all out
That all you have loved disappears?
Don't you hate when you finally realize
That it's hard to smile through the tears?
Don't you hate that the one s you love
Will never trust you again?
Don't you hate when you know it's all your fault
You're the reason that it all began?
Don't you hate it?
********************************
PUSH A LITTLE MORE 6/12/05
Push a little more
Go ahead
I won't be here when you wake
The more I think about it the more I realize I don't need you
I can get a job
I can go to college
I can do this stuff on my own
So go ahead and push a little more
********************************
YOUR VOICE, YOUR CALL
The ring of the phone
Speeds the beat of my heart
The music of your voice
Brings a smile to my face
The words that fall from your lips
Spark flames in my soul
The final words and final click
Cause the hole in my heart to grow
A serene feeling envelopes me
The happiness from your call remains
********************************
YOUR WORDS 7/11/05
I
Love
You
As your words come tumbling out
They pierce me and I feel
My heart warm
My face shifts to a grin
And I giggle
Then I hear you say
You're
So
Beautiful
********************************
SERIAL KILLER 7/9/05
Darkest thoughts swim in the mind
Sharpening blades
Dripping blood
The screams
The cries
An evil glint
A plunging arm
The soul is gone
No hope remains
A cold shell wanders the earth 'til the spark returns
Another victim
And the cycle begins again
********************************
FATHER 7/17/05
The news hit hard
A huge piece of my life
Had gone, died
The church was lit like any other mass
But the atmosphere was heavy
Silence echoed speckled with sniffles
Friends went up and spoke
The spoke about good times with him
And I think, I remember
I remember hugs
I remember ceremonies
And I think "I've known this man for almost twenty years
"And now he's gone"
My friend, My father
My priest
Dedicated to
Father Stanley Luehrmann
6/2/1928 to 7/17/2005
********************************
QUICK WORDS 8/25/05
The insensative slip of the tongue brings
pain to both the speaker and the other
but also sadness to the first. Quick
apologies do nothing but make them
both feel bad and any happy mood is
lost.
********************************
BROKEN WINGS, BROKEN DREAMS 4/9/06
You are my pillar
The foundataion of my dreams and plans
Slowly, slowly
Everything seems to be crumbling away
My feet are sliding and I'm falling
What can I do?
My wings are broken
Silver blade
So sharp and tempting
Draw my blood
Show me relief
Cut away my pain
Slice away my indecision
Vampire blade
Taste my blood
So sweet and rich
The seductive draw
Flooding to the dark
Swept to death
Take me away from here
********************************
AS ONE 1/2/05
Music pounding
People dancing
Our bodies move as one
Pounding rhythm
Slow and sensual
We are one
********************************
DROWNING 1/2/05
Calm heart
Water rises
I breathe it in
Salt stings my eyes
My heart speeds up
Darkness closes in
I'm here to die
I don't want to live
You are gone
Dead
So am I
********************************
ALONE
Shattered glass
Bright red blood
A broken home
All alone
Middle Man
Not again
The darkness calls
And she falls
Through wind she flies
And then she dies
********************************
In the darkest night
I wander alone
In search for a soul
Then there is your light
Beautiful and bright
You're here with me now
The night doesn't seem
so dark
********************************
I'm on the verge of screaming
I cannot take this anymore
I need you here
For my arms to hold
My whole body
Yearns for your touch
I need you here
To hold me tight
********************************
Eyes like the sky
Hair like the night
Skin touched by the sun
And a smile so bright
In his strong hands
He holds my heart
In his loving arms
He holds my body
In himself
He has my love
I cannot stand
To see him cry
To see him hurt
I'd rather die
But I'll be with him
Forever more
If just to see his smile
I love him
********************************
Two broken hearts
Who'd never love
Found each other
And fit like a glove
Your heart with mine
Is one complete
And I know those others
Were obsolete
********************************
INTRO 2/25/05
I have nothing to write
No words flow from my pen
The well of my creativity is running dry
I'll write a short trilogy
About the three of us
We are different
We are the same
********************************
ZAIANDE 2/25/05
Beautiful and confident
Wild and fun
She is forceful and seductive
A number one tease
Born to roleplay but now
She is more
The body she is in
Would change if she took over
She scares me
She is me
********************************
CHRISTINE 2/25/05
Pretty and smart
But low self-esteem
Sometimes submissive
But usually happy
She makes everyone feel at ease
Her friends say she changes
They say it's bad
Maybe it's because Zaia and I are here
She doesn't care what people think
She is herself
********************************
KIAELYN 2/25/05
The depressed artist
My work is not very good
But I do it anyway
I don't tkae over often
But a lot recently
I'm always waiting
Always writing
I had a poem about the moon
I forgot it
I am restless
********************************
DIAMOND GIRL 2/25/05
We three are one
We share one body
Thre faces of the same girl
Like a diamond
Beautiful and strong
Cut just right
To make her shine
Her smile lights up a room
She something special
We are the diamond girl
********************************
3/20/05
The darkness calls
My heart is listening
Follow your heart into the dark
And you'll find the light of your life
I did
********************************
NORTHERN LIGHTS
Crisp cool air
Darkness all around
Night sounds echoing
A beautiful clear night
The glowing haze
Shifts and slithers
Forms a green ribbon
A snake in the sky
The color runs
Spikes of red and blue
Rain down
The Northern Lights
Fill the sky
I stare in awe
Colors fade
They dissipate
And all that's left
Is the memory
Of a glowing ribbon
On a velvet blanket
Surrounded by diamonds
********************************
THE EX
Muddled feelings
Confusing thoughts
Unable to voice them
Broken heart
Painful memories
How do I control my feelings?
What do I do?
I love him
But I can't, I won't
Be with him again
********************************
AFTERMATH OF MY MISTAKE 4/27/05
Every minute that passes
With every tick of the clock
My fear grows
I fear that when I come back
My bed will be empty
The love I found will be gone
You'll have gone away
What if you are gone?
When will I see you again?
Will I see you again?
What will I do?
Please God help me
Help me fix this
What do I do?
Dear God I need him
Please lead me in the right direction
Show me how to win his heart
Tell me how to show my love
********************************
He sits there
Like a shining god
Doting on you
His queen
Who wouldn't though
The sight of you
Freezes me in place
I cannot speak
I cannot breathe
The heat of lust
Washes over me
My heart pounds
Blinding me
Defening me
I temble and sweat
My want for you
Is so strong
It nearly kills me
You'll be the death of me
********************************
A cold, dark hand grips my heart
and fear washes over me
********************************
SOMETIMES I HATE YOU 6/5/05
I hate the way you make me feel
I hate the way you look at me
The look that says "You're a disappointment"
"You'll make all the wrong decisions"
Look at yourself in the mirror
You hypocrite
You can't control me
That's what I want but you've got me under your thumb
Sometimes I really hate you
Don't give me relationship advice
You can't stay in one yourself
You push everyone away
EVERYONE
Things have changed
Get used to it
I'm growing up
Let me go
I'm not your prisoner
Sometimes I really hate you
********************************
DON'T YOU HATE IT? 6/10/05
Don't you hate it when someone uses you
And you're not even their's to use?
Don't you hate when you've fallen for their charms
'Cause you think they've fallen for you?
Don't you hate when you hide it inside
Then the voices start talking to you?
Don't you hate when you let it all out
That all you have loved disappears?
Don't you hate when you finally realize
That it's hard to smile through the tears?
Don't you hate that the one s you love
Will never trust you again?
Don't you hate when you know it's all your fault
You're the reason that it all began?
Don't you hate it?
********************************
PUSH A LITTLE MORE 6/12/05
Push a little more
Go ahead
I won't be here when you wake
The more I think about it the more I realize I don't need you
I can get a job
I can go to college
I can do this stuff on my own
So go ahead and push a little more
********************************
YOUR VOICE, YOUR CALL
The ring of the phone
Speeds the beat of my heart
The music of your voice
Brings a smile to my face
The words that fall from your lips
Spark flames in my soul
The final words and final click
Cause the hole in my heart to grow
A serene feeling envelopes me
The happiness from your call remains
********************************
YOUR WORDS 7/11/05
I
Love
You
As your words come tumbling out
They pierce me and I feel
My heart warm
My face shifts to a grin
And I giggle
Then I hear you say
You're
So
Beautiful
********************************
SERIAL KILLER 7/9/05
Darkest thoughts swim in the mind
Sharpening blades
Dripping blood
The screams
The cries
An evil glint
A plunging arm
The soul is gone
No hope remains
A cold shell wanders the earth 'til the spark returns
Another victim
And the cycle begins again
********************************
FATHER 7/17/05
The news hit hard
A huge piece of my life
Had gone, died
The church was lit like any other mass
But the atmosphere was heavy
Silence echoed speckled with sniffles
Friends went up and spoke
The spoke about good times with him
And I think, I remember
I remember hugs
I remember ceremonies
And I think "I've known this man for almost twenty years
"And now he's gone"
My friend, My father
My priest
Dedicated to
Father Stanley Luehrmann
6/2/1928 to 7/17/2005
********************************
QUICK WORDS 8/25/05
The insensative slip of the tongue brings
pain to both the speaker and the other
but also sadness to the first. Quick
apologies do nothing but make them
both feel bad and any happy mood is
lost.
********************************
BROKEN WINGS, BROKEN DREAMS 4/9/06
You are my pillar
The foundataion of my dreams and plans
Slowly, slowly
Everything seems to be crumbling away
My feet are sliding and I'm falling
What can I do?
My wings are broken