Work >>>> Life is out of balance
Lately I've been turning over some thoughts in my head and reflecting. Just a year or two ago I was a person with a rich personal life that was a lot more interesting than my job -- I looked forward to getting home from work every day because the days lasted so long, and everything I wanted to do was away from work. Although I poured some time and effort into certifications, testing and other kinds of studying, it was all from my own initiative.
So it's strange to me how I find my life has turned upside down. Now I have a job that makes me feel really accomplished, that I'm glad to be going to every day, and more of a sense of pride in my role. While my outside of work life is stagnating....
I mean it's not really that it's boring. My GF and I go out and do things and have fun. The scenery is nice, the weather has been warm, and every weekend is at least one new thing to do. I just feel like I'm spinning my wheels now....
Is life about working 5 days a week so you can get a little leisure time to recuperate with weekends and vacations? I don't feel that way. I have a lot of personal interests, goals, things I want to accomplish. Some people take the work-and-play perspective and that's fine for them -- just not for me. I want to be more than a person who does some job somewhere.. that's not how I define myself.
Alas, I often find myself doing pointless things when I'm sitting around at home, even on the internet lately. Being on the internet has started to become a waste of time, where I'll randomly read news links and blogs and when I run out of things to read, search for some more. But I want to do something that matters or is more than merely killing time.
I just need to find a new direction to go in, an outlet for my creative energies or a fulfillment of the need to be connected or do something meaningful... but for now I'm still looking.
BTW, just as a random thought, are there many people out there on my Friends list who still consider me a friend? :) Because it's not like I've kept in touch with all of you as much as I should.. though it goes both ways.
So it's strange to me how I find my life has turned upside down. Now I have a job that makes me feel really accomplished, that I'm glad to be going to every day, and more of a sense of pride in my role. While my outside of work life is stagnating....
I mean it's not really that it's boring. My GF and I go out and do things and have fun. The scenery is nice, the weather has been warm, and every weekend is at least one new thing to do. I just feel like I'm spinning my wheels now....
Is life about working 5 days a week so you can get a little leisure time to recuperate with weekends and vacations? I don't feel that way. I have a lot of personal interests, goals, things I want to accomplish. Some people take the work-and-play perspective and that's fine for them -- just not for me. I want to be more than a person who does some job somewhere.. that's not how I define myself.
Alas, I often find myself doing pointless things when I'm sitting around at home, even on the internet lately. Being on the internet has started to become a waste of time, where I'll randomly read news links and blogs and when I run out of things to read, search for some more. But I want to do something that matters or is more than merely killing time.
I just need to find a new direction to go in, an outlet for my creative energies or a fulfillment of the need to be connected or do something meaningful... but for now I'm still looking.
BTW, just as a random thought, are there many people out there on my Friends list who still consider me a friend? :) Because it's not like I've kept in touch with all of you as much as I should.. though it goes both ways.