Pain and first smiles.
I am so, so, so sore. I totally crashed this afternoon after I came home from the mothers' get together thing at Leith's (other) grandmother's house. I don't know why it made me so tired, all I did was sit around feeding Leith and eating! Maybe it was seeing the other four, older and very active babies that made me tired... lol. Just looking at them! Anyway, I completely crashed even though I had to make a call to Leith's nurse and I'd asked Matt to get the phone for me. Apparently he was talking to me, asking me questions and I was replying with "mm"s, and was reminding me to ring the nurse but I can't remember a bit of that! All I remember is asking him to get me the phone and then waking up in the exact same position three hours later... and my hip was absolutely... hurting. SO SORE. It still is. It feels like I've popped out my leg, not that I have a clue was that feels like... it just really hurts when I move my leg. Ow ow ow ow ow. And on the same side my breast is KILLING MEEE. I hope that I'm not getting mistitis... I think that's what it's called... when the milk kind of goes stale inside your breast because you're not emptying it often enough, so it curds and blocks up the little... thingies... that the milk comes through... Make sense? Anyway, I hope that that's not happening to my left breast. I've just given Leith a long feed and then expressed about 40ml so hopefully if it still hurts in the morning and I keep doing that, that'll take care of things. It could just be hurting because I slept awkwardly on my left side, though. I've taken some ibuprofen and am planning to go to bed now (even though I'm not at all tired... boooo...) so, so, so yeah!!
On a sidenote, I'm sort of worrying that I'm not spending enough time with Leith. Everyone else holds him more than I do. Or is that just my imagination? I'm trying to spend more time with him, changing more nappies, spending more play time with him even though my mum is way better at playing with him than I am... he freak... WHAT IS WITH MY SPELLING? I mean, he frequently smiles when he plays with mum but I only got my first smile today and I wasn't even doing anything! lol. So maybe it was just wind, even though it didn't look like a windy smile.
So just to recap: I GOT MY FIRST SMILES FROM LEITH TODAY.
On a sidenote, I'm sort of worrying that I'm not spending enough time with Leith. Everyone else holds him more than I do. Or is that just my imagination? I'm trying to spend more time with him, changing more nappies, spending more play time with him even though my mum is way better at playing with him than I am... he freak... WHAT IS WITH MY SPELLING? I mean, he frequently smiles when he plays with mum but I only got my first smile today and I wasn't even doing anything! lol. So maybe it was just wind, even though it didn't look like a windy smile.
So just to recap: I GOT MY FIRST SMILES FROM LEITH TODAY.