I feel so unlike myself
Yeah so many things have been going on these past couple weeks and i don't even feel like myself lately. Maybe it's because the person that i used to see everyday i haven't spoken with for like a week. Of course that is my fault because i was the one that said i didn't want to speak or see him for a while. It's not because i'm just some random bitch that decides when and when not to hang out with people, but what he said on Friday really did hurt. I know he's sorry about it, but at the moment i can't look at him the same way. Anyway, people have been really supportive and i really appreciate it. Things just seem to keep going downhill though. Every day that passes is another day closer to my mom's surgery...which means i'm basically out of money for a good 2 months. I've been becoming quite forgetful because of it too. For example...today...grabbed the wrong binder for Meiji Japan that had the web assignment in it that took HOURS last night. I forgot to read for that class and he gave a pop quiz too. Then Chinese lab came along. Yesterday i didn't go to class because i felt like shit so i learned the lesson on my own. Well...i misread the syllabus and did the wrong homework. I wasn't supposed to write out the characters and translate the dialogue which took about an hour and a half, instead i was supposed to do some exercise thing. Yeah so that bit... I'm really hoping this week brightens up. Like i have my highs when i'm smiling and having fun with my friends and sisters, especially since it's Greek Week and we're paired with the Delts. Chad is so pretty... lol. But then when i end up back in this room or in class...i just lose it. i think i need a break from this place, which reminds me i have to find a way to get home for fall break...either by Erin, Phil, or Kate, if not my uncle is coming for me. ah well...i guess it's time i actually tried doing something productive. ja ne