why
Its amazing, if you base your whole happiness and worth of breath on one person, that if the slitest things goes wrong, you feel like your whole world has turned upside down.
I no its not the worst thing in the world but thinking of what happend makes me feel so alone, no matter what anybody says, as long as i dont have that one strenght, nothin is worth living for right now. the trust of me n jeff is strong, but when the trust becomes something open, which dosnt make it trust anymore because its "suppost" to b in the relashioship now, theres nothin left. i feel like we are forever apart now, that he dosint care as much, that its not a big deal, and meanwhile, all i can and want to think about is him. Hes the only one i want to be with, hes the only one i want to think about, , hes become such an important ingredent to my happiness right now that the thought of him with another girl makes me want to die and bleed. i should tell him, yea i no, but i will in april, when i want to talk the relashionship to the next level (april)i cant see myself without him, its wothless without him, no meaning wat so ever, what will i have left in life, the stupid concerts that i get so exited for, but i wont want to even go if i dont have him. alright well thats enough, im kinda out of it right now, thats why im spilling my heart out.
i hate this..
I no its not the worst thing in the world but thinking of what happend makes me feel so alone, no matter what anybody says, as long as i dont have that one strenght, nothin is worth living for right now. the trust of me n jeff is strong, but when the trust becomes something open, which dosnt make it trust anymore because its "suppost" to b in the relashioship now, theres nothin left. i feel like we are forever apart now, that he dosint care as much, that its not a big deal, and meanwhile, all i can and want to think about is him. Hes the only one i want to be with, hes the only one i want to think about, , hes become such an important ingredent to my happiness right now that the thought of him with another girl makes me want to die and bleed. i should tell him, yea i no, but i will in april, when i want to talk the relashionship to the next level (april)i cant see myself without him, its wothless without him, no meaning wat so ever, what will i have left in life, the stupid concerts that i get so exited for, but i wont want to even go if i dont have him. alright well thats enough, im kinda out of it right now, thats why im spilling my heart out.
i hate this..