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Alright well she leaft today. I forgot how much it hurt, but i think ill b better then last time she did, last time i think i was on the verge of depression, honestly tho. When she leaft, waching her get into the plane was really hard, all the bad memories of last time she left came back and it left me with one weird thought, the guyz, i guess ill call him X. it reminded me of how much i miss him n how much wrong i did. It is the first thing i ever did to make myself ashamed of being me, which is pretty harsh. i suffer everyday a bit more in a way, but in another way, i heal, it works both ways. i need something to keep my mind off of him at all times n now that my best friend went back to london, hes all thats left, with my other bestfriend. thank god shes with me, i would probably do something stupid if she wasint here with me, problem is that she might leave in about two years, but ill b in a different school so ill have more friends for support.