May 30, 2005 23:09
I keep remembering these childhoods I never had. And I can't figure out why. Envy is the only thing that comes to mind, but how low that would be. I am far more penetrable and average than I thought.
I know what the recipe is, I'm holding it in my hands, but I just keep putting it aside and I keep trying to cook like I've seen it done on TV. It looks so easy on TV, why can't I do it? Why can't I get it to look exactly like it does on TV?
I'm sure it would even taste better if I follow the recipe. I know it. But I find it far too difficult to follow it. I'd rather keep trying to do it like they do on TV.
Sometimes I think there's more 'luck' involved than we presume.
So lucky.