I wish I had a punching bag...
...because then I could punch out my anger and frustration. Although, I'd only get more frustrated because I can't throw hard punches. No one really respects me at work. I ask someone to do something as nicely as I could and they do it at their own convenience, if at all. I may not always say 'please' but neither does anyone else and they do the shit they're told to do. Now, I do have people that will do things when I ask, but they're are the select few whom don't care at all. Whenever I'm not the only head cashier, they go to the other for their assignment or whenever they have the question. Even when I'm right fucking there! I'm also tired of their fucking attitude when I ask them to do things or inform them of something. No one likes being hung up on, no one likes the 'whatever' tone. I am no exception. You don't have to be buddy-buddy with me and talk to me at work, but I expect you to do what's fucking asked of you. No ifs, ands, or buts about it. I mean come on, your a fucking adult working at a job. Just like any other job you are to show respect, regardless of whom you work with. I try to be as laid-back and cool as I can. But when you go off to speak with another head cashier when I'm the one taking over for the night, or hang up on me in the middle of a fucking sentence, or completely fucking ignore me. It outright pisses me off. It takes all my strength not to snap at them. I suppose that's what I end up feeling the most, ignored. I get that even from other co-workers. It's not that big of a deal, but it does make me feel very small. Definitely makes me second guess whether or not to even fucking speak to them again. What the fuck is people's problem anyway? What have I done to be treated so fucking badly? Seriously, I would love to know. Maybe I can work on changing it? No, wait, I wouldn't change it because I haven't done anything that could be considered so badly that I would be treated with disrespect and fucking ignored. You know what? Fuck those people who have a fucking problem with me. I'm tired of dealing with their bullshit. I'm not there to appease them or to make them like me. I can fucking care less if they like me, just make my job and your job easier by doing what is expected of you. Its not like I'm asking them to do a lot or anything. They keep complaining that they want to go home early when I close. Well, guess what? That can happen if you actually do the damned lists at the end of the night while I close registers. And I mean to ACTUALLY do them. Not fucking saying you did and I come to realize that after I let everyone go and I walk through the lists that shit wasn't done like they said they were. I hate being lied to, I don't lie to you. So don't fucking lie to me. If they keep their fucking attitude up much more I don't think I'll be able to handle it. I'll tell Lowe's to take this job and shove it. Or to move me to the fucking department I want a hell of a lot sooner than they want. I have to put up with customers and their fucking attitudes and complaints, I shouldn't have to put up with the same kind of bullshit from the people I work with. By time I left work tonight, I was fuming. However, I said nothing. You know, my day wasn't going so bad until after lunch time. Then I had the issues. As I went home I decided to stop by the ATM after I got some groceries for my lunches. After waiting for two cars to go through, I get up the the ATM and it says that it's out of order. Great! So I waited in line to get money out and it craps out when I get to it. You know, that only improves my mood. *notes sarcasm* So I'll just have to wait to get more money out. I have my oral consultation for my wisdom tooth Wed, so I'll be driving home after work tomorrow. I close tomorrow, so I'll be getting to my parents' house late. But, oh well, nothing new. I can only hope that my week gets better by time my birthday hits on Friday.