I feel like I'm looking at life,
Writing Updates: Silver Platter - Soul Mates; Direction - Dressed Up
Through a telescope because I’m so high ::Random::
If time is money and I have nothing but time - why am I so broke?
And the ground never seemed so far away ::Writing::
Today’s Soul Mates Drabble was kind of dark compared to my other ones. But that’s okay because I like how it turned out. I’m really enjoying writing for Soul Mates. And I’m really looking forward to vacation so I can get more writing done. Back to studying.
The Truth Shall be Told one Day ::Finals::
I put on a strong face and a smile because it’s easier for me to pretend that everything is okay. But secretly I’m freaking out because I don’t think I’m ready for finals. If I don’t know the information now, there really isn’t much that can be done for me. I swear I’m going to try my hardest. And I swear I’ll do my very best. I’m just a little bit scared that perhaps I don’t remember as much as I would like too. I’m secretly kind of scared that I might not know what I’m talking about. Everyone’s assured me I’ll be fine and some part of me feels it. But, this is really the only chance I have to say all this. Because I know the closer it gets the better I’ll be. And I’d like to stop going over Japanese homework in my head as I try to go to sleep. I’m just nervous. I don’t even know that I know all the dates and art that I need to know. It’s not the humanities that scares me. It’s not the art history that is making me worry. It’s the fact that I still don’t think I’m any good at learning a new language.
I still kinda sorta think I’m absolutely no good at it.
That’s a little bit due to the fact that I’m really really hard on myself. I know I’m probably overreacting. It’s just I really feel like I’m good at school. And Japanese is probably the only class I’ve ever had a real challenge in. Ever. In my entire life I find it challenging and exhilarating, and I love it. It’s not like biology or math. I know I can do the basics of those enough to pass. I know I have the basic knowledge to get me through those classes. And I know I have the basics for what I need to get through life in them. It’s simple; I do what I can, even though the concepts (in depth) are way beyond me. Japanese is not something I have to do to get through my degree. It’s not required at all. This is something I wanted to do. And I’m doing it. I’m loving it, it’s just that I’m also nervous because I feel I’m not very good at it. I know everyone’s going to be reassuring and I appreciate that so very much. I’m just also not very confident in my ability. It’s silly of me to say, I know. And that’s okay because I’m sure we all have our insecurities.
I just want to make sure there’s only one day of this. I’m not going to let it trouble me after I finish typing all of this. Because I need to be done with it. I need to use this energy to get through my finals, and I will. I just wanted to say, that for once, I’m actually a little bit nervous. And it’s kind of an odd feeling when I think about it. Because I doubt anyone would have known otherwise.
I also have to admit I’m very excited because when I started this in June I didn’t think there was any way I would ever be able to learn a new language. I didn’t think I’d be able to write hiragana or katakana, and I never imagined I’d ever be able to read it. But I’m writing it. And I’m reading it. In January I get to learn to read Kanji. And it’s going to be hard. I know it, but, it was hard to learn hiragana and katakana too. I can already read a little bit of kanji. I’m really very happy about it even though I say I’m also scared. I also know when I hear Japanese I understand more than I realize. I understand it and it’s a good feeling. My reading comprehension is certainly better now than it was when I started too. So with a little work, I think, that one day I won’t be so nervous about it. But I’ve only been studying the language for half a year - I have a long way to go.
And the truth is now that I’ve written this, I feel a lot better. I’m going to tackle my finals!
I’ll be Underground One Day ::Group Projects:: 5/5
It’s getting to the point I’m freaking out. We’re four lines. Four freaking lines from being done with the translation and final draft so we can turn it in on its due date (today). And the person translating them has been missing since the 25th with the promise of having his lines in by the 26th. So now I’m like “AH!” because I may have to translate them and I still have to study for finals tomorrow. I’m not worried about the studying part. I think I’ll just translate the lines, so that Shideler-san doesn’t have too since she’s already done a lot. Its four lines, I keep telling myself it can’t be that bad. But I wrote the English version and I’m not sure I’m skilled enough to translate it. Seeing as that Shideler-san is in the midst of another project too though, I don’t mind trying to get this done. I’d have liked if the other member did what they had said, but, I’m not holding my breath for it. Ah apparently I can’t count. There are five lines that need translated! I have two of them done. Bwah, I finished that - and of course I’m not very confident with the way it all came out. But I do feel accomplished for making an attempt. It cut into my study time, but, I think it also helped my vocabulary.
Through a telescope because I’m so high ::Random::
If time is money and I have nothing but time - why am I so broke?
And the ground never seemed so far away ::Writing::
Today’s Soul Mates Drabble was kind of dark compared to my other ones. But that’s okay because I like how it turned out. I’m really enjoying writing for Soul Mates. And I’m really looking forward to vacation so I can get more writing done. Back to studying.
The Truth Shall be Told one Day ::Finals::
I put on a strong face and a smile because it’s easier for me to pretend that everything is okay. But secretly I’m freaking out because I don’t think I’m ready for finals. If I don’t know the information now, there really isn’t much that can be done for me. I swear I’m going to try my hardest. And I swear I’ll do my very best. I’m just a little bit scared that perhaps I don’t remember as much as I would like too. I’m secretly kind of scared that I might not know what I’m talking about. Everyone’s assured me I’ll be fine and some part of me feels it. But, this is really the only chance I have to say all this. Because I know the closer it gets the better I’ll be. And I’d like to stop going over Japanese homework in my head as I try to go to sleep. I’m just nervous. I don’t even know that I know all the dates and art that I need to know. It’s not the humanities that scares me. It’s not the art history that is making me worry. It’s the fact that I still don’t think I’m any good at learning a new language.
I still kinda sorta think I’m absolutely no good at it.
That’s a little bit due to the fact that I’m really really hard on myself. I know I’m probably overreacting. It’s just I really feel like I’m good at school. And Japanese is probably the only class I’ve ever had a real challenge in. Ever. In my entire life I find it challenging and exhilarating, and I love it. It’s not like biology or math. I know I can do the basics of those enough to pass. I know I have the basic knowledge to get me through those classes. And I know I have the basics for what I need to get through life in them. It’s simple; I do what I can, even though the concepts (in depth) are way beyond me. Japanese is not something I have to do to get through my degree. It’s not required at all. This is something I wanted to do. And I’m doing it. I’m loving it, it’s just that I’m also nervous because I feel I’m not very good at it. I know everyone’s going to be reassuring and I appreciate that so very much. I’m just also not very confident in my ability. It’s silly of me to say, I know. And that’s okay because I’m sure we all have our insecurities.
I just want to make sure there’s only one day of this. I’m not going to let it trouble me after I finish typing all of this. Because I need to be done with it. I need to use this energy to get through my finals, and I will. I just wanted to say, that for once, I’m actually a little bit nervous. And it’s kind of an odd feeling when I think about it. Because I doubt anyone would have known otherwise.
I also have to admit I’m very excited because when I started this in June I didn’t think there was any way I would ever be able to learn a new language. I didn’t think I’d be able to write hiragana or katakana, and I never imagined I’d ever be able to read it. But I’m writing it. And I’m reading it. In January I get to learn to read Kanji. And it’s going to be hard. I know it, but, it was hard to learn hiragana and katakana too. I can already read a little bit of kanji. I’m really very happy about it even though I say I’m also scared. I also know when I hear Japanese I understand more than I realize. I understand it and it’s a good feeling. My reading comprehension is certainly better now than it was when I started too. So with a little work, I think, that one day I won’t be so nervous about it. But I’ve only been studying the language for half a year - I have a long way to go.
And the truth is now that I’ve written this, I feel a lot better. I’m going to tackle my finals!
I’ll be Underground One Day ::Group Projects:: 5/5
It’s getting to the point I’m freaking out. We’re four lines. Four freaking lines from being done with the translation and final draft so we can turn it in on its due date (today). And the person translating them has been missing since the 25th with the promise of having his lines in by the 26th. So now I’m like “AH!” because I may have to translate them and I still have to study for finals tomorrow. I’m not worried about the studying part. I think I’ll just translate the lines, so that Shideler-san doesn’t have too since she’s already done a lot. Its four lines, I keep telling myself it can’t be that bad. But I wrote the English version and I’m not sure I’m skilled enough to translate it. Seeing as that Shideler-san is in the midst of another project too though, I don’t mind trying to get this done. I’d have liked if the other member did what they had said, but, I’m not holding my breath for it. Ah apparently I can’t count. There are five lines that need translated! I have two of them done. Bwah, I finished that - and of course I’m not very confident with the way it all came out. But I do feel accomplished for making an attempt. It cut into my study time, but, I think it also helped my vocabulary.