has the world gotten a bit dimmer?
ive had the luxury of time to think about it. but this'll be the first time i write about it.
why do people sway towards taking their friends for granted? and the ironic part is, one realizes the greatness of such a friendship ONLY when it can no longer exist as it once had.
xavier was the first friend i made when i met my english literature class during freshman orientation. there are those that youre friends with just so you have someone to talk to in a class. then there are those who are on a similar wavelength as you, and you connect on a level unique to a select few. xavier and i shared the same sarcastic nature that bordered on pessimistic. those days seemed to drag on - time tends to go really slow when ur stuck in a place you want to escape - to such a point when my newly developed pessimism became borderline desperation. yet, talking to him reversed some negativity i held inside. just enough to keep me sane, for two whole semesters.
i remember being so pissed off at him during our first debate together. he gave a two minute speech when he had seven. if that wasnt enough, his speech was in agreement with the opposing team. now i realize how reflective this was on xavier's outlook in life. no matter what side he was put on; he would always stick with what he thought was right for him. he never jumped onto a bandwangon he wasnt passionate about.
if i couldnt tell xavier how much of a profound influence he was to me, its only because i didnt know. it took his death to uncloud the mysticism of how two people - epitomizing polarity to the rest of the world yet coexisting in logical harmony in each others' company - could have even met, much less impart such a lingering happy-sorrow when the one who is no longer here is remembered.
"Jesus in my life - though i count myself as an agnostic - presents the logic and reason, the instrument of clarity, in acknowledging the essence of God's word. He offers a point of reference in our understanding, if not, in our search for truth. And hopefully, I will find the truth at last. =) "
--- johnxavierlopezyu
why do people sway towards taking their friends for granted? and the ironic part is, one realizes the greatness of such a friendship ONLY when it can no longer exist as it once had.
xavier was the first friend i made when i met my english literature class during freshman orientation. there are those that youre friends with just so you have someone to talk to in a class. then there are those who are on a similar wavelength as you, and you connect on a level unique to a select few. xavier and i shared the same sarcastic nature that bordered on pessimistic. those days seemed to drag on - time tends to go really slow when ur stuck in a place you want to escape - to such a point when my newly developed pessimism became borderline desperation. yet, talking to him reversed some negativity i held inside. just enough to keep me sane, for two whole semesters.
i remember being so pissed off at him during our first debate together. he gave a two minute speech when he had seven. if that wasnt enough, his speech was in agreement with the opposing team. now i realize how reflective this was on xavier's outlook in life. no matter what side he was put on; he would always stick with what he thought was right for him. he never jumped onto a bandwangon he wasnt passionate about.
if i couldnt tell xavier how much of a profound influence he was to me, its only because i didnt know. it took his death to uncloud the mysticism of how two people - epitomizing polarity to the rest of the world yet coexisting in logical harmony in each others' company - could have even met, much less impart such a lingering happy-sorrow when the one who is no longer here is remembered.
"Jesus in my life - though i count myself as an agnostic - presents the logic and reason, the instrument of clarity, in acknowledging the essence of God's word. He offers a point of reference in our understanding, if not, in our search for truth. And hopefully, I will find the truth at last. =) "
--- johnxavierlopezyu