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i had a huge update the other day about how i gained 10 pounds but dont really care, and how i dont really know what to do with myself. and how 2005 sucked but could have been worse. then the previewing option on lj ate it.
i spent the night with katie, karel and kendall and received some awesome gifts.
from kendall, this 3-d picture frame, a huge tin of french vanilla cappuccino mix, and the inu yasha movie. from katie this hilarious journal that i adore and am looking forward to using every day. from karel, a ton of playdoh. it was the most random yet awesome gift ever. we were going to watch a movie but instead ended up spending hours sitting in kendalls basement making elaborate things out of the playdoh and talking about everything from shakespeare to harry potter.
on the drive home karel and i talked about relationships and university. and life. and doing things. it was a really nice conversation. it was a nice evening. i think being with them really made my christmas break complete. intelligent, wonderful, fun people to be with. we can laugh for hours together, even over our failed relationships and friendships. we always manage to shed a positive light on the situation or make the dark so much more entertaining.
2005 was bad, kids, but some wonderful things happened too. loved, lost. made wonderful new friends. strengthened bonds with some, broke others. tested my emotional boundaries and pushed the envelope.
im not bitter. its time to move forward, quit stressing the small stuff and letting some things and some people take care of themselves and make their own choices. i have come to realize that i cant blame myself for the poor decisions made by others this year. when i cant rely on others to do the right thing, i simply have to step up and take control of my own life and my own happiness. and i plan to do just that.
ive made a lot of resolutions, none of which i will post here. they are all silly, and probably subject to change throughout the year. its going to be a whole new world, different place, different people. i have no idea whats around the corner but im sure it will be interesting either way.
all in all a good night to kick off what i hope will be a good year.
i spent the night with katie, karel and kendall and received some awesome gifts.
from kendall, this 3-d picture frame, a huge tin of french vanilla cappuccino mix, and the inu yasha movie. from katie this hilarious journal that i adore and am looking forward to using every day. from karel, a ton of playdoh. it was the most random yet awesome gift ever. we were going to watch a movie but instead ended up spending hours sitting in kendalls basement making elaborate things out of the playdoh and talking about everything from shakespeare to harry potter.
on the drive home karel and i talked about relationships and university. and life. and doing things. it was a really nice conversation. it was a nice evening. i think being with them really made my christmas break complete. intelligent, wonderful, fun people to be with. we can laugh for hours together, even over our failed relationships and friendships. we always manage to shed a positive light on the situation or make the dark so much more entertaining.
2005 was bad, kids, but some wonderful things happened too. loved, lost. made wonderful new friends. strengthened bonds with some, broke others. tested my emotional boundaries and pushed the envelope.
im not bitter. its time to move forward, quit stressing the small stuff and letting some things and some people take care of themselves and make their own choices. i have come to realize that i cant blame myself for the poor decisions made by others this year. when i cant rely on others to do the right thing, i simply have to step up and take control of my own life and my own happiness. and i plan to do just that.
ive made a lot of resolutions, none of which i will post here. they are all silly, and probably subject to change throughout the year. its going to be a whole new world, different place, different people. i have no idea whats around the corner but im sure it will be interesting either way.
all in all a good night to kick off what i hope will be a good year.