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I am entering in my livejournal, something i rarely do anymore.
well its a weekend and yet again i am sitting home alone because there is not one person who would hang out with me, everyone says they are busy, but since everyone has been "busy" since i started going to this school last year, i've started to think i am undesirable to you people. if thats true and yo dont want to hang out with me, just say something and i'll leave you alone about it. I am used to not having friends, thats how it was in michigan except for like 5 people....i dont know i just thought i was finally at a place where people liked me and i would be around people who liked theater like me and i wouldnt be and outcast and i could finally for the first time in my life have friends and spend weekends with people and not feel like a total lepper just cuz i am a little different. but if thats not the case...i get it. its meant to be i suppose. what makes it even better is that next weekend i am going to michigan to see the show i assistant directed and i wolll be surrounded by a group of people who hate me because im talented, the group who's too good to talk to me, and the people i love more than life; my only friends, but who hate me for leaving them. where do i fit? someone tell me wehre i can be happy cuz i havent been able to figure it out yet. if you believe i am happy at school on a day to day basis, i must be a better actor than i thought. like me please.
well its a weekend and yet again i am sitting home alone because there is not one person who would hang out with me, everyone says they are busy, but since everyone has been "busy" since i started going to this school last year, i've started to think i am undesirable to you people. if thats true and yo dont want to hang out with me, just say something and i'll leave you alone about it. I am used to not having friends, thats how it was in michigan except for like 5 people....i dont know i just thought i was finally at a place where people liked me and i would be around people who liked theater like me and i wouldnt be and outcast and i could finally for the first time in my life have friends and spend weekends with people and not feel like a total lepper just cuz i am a little different. but if thats not the case...i get it. its meant to be i suppose. what makes it even better is that next weekend i am going to michigan to see the show i assistant directed and i wolll be surrounded by a group of people who hate me because im talented, the group who's too good to talk to me, and the people i love more than life; my only friends, but who hate me for leaving them. where do i fit? someone tell me wehre i can be happy cuz i havent been able to figure it out yet. if you believe i am happy at school on a day to day basis, i must be a better actor than i thought. like me please.