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it's easter.
my aunt did come over.
i cracked open the bottle of wine. ok no, that's a lie.
my dad opened it for me.
i drank the whole thing by myself.
um yea, so dinner was pretty much everyone just laughing at me.
they all know im a lush... just never seen it in progress.
uh yea, i havne't seen jay since last night.
i really fucking miss him.
we both love each other so much... but occasionally get nervous or doubt the other one?
i dont know what it is.
maybe we're both so amazed that we're experiencing a mutual love for one another.
oh and having amazing sex.
that too.
thursday was soooooo much fun.
i saw the akas/unseen/casualties alone.
lame, but whatever.
the second i walked in the door at irving i ran up the stairs got a beer.
chugged it. and jumped in the circle pit.
i don't know if i say this every time... but that night, i had an amazing time in that pit.
i had so much fun, i was upset jay wasn't there to experience it with me.
friday = subhumans.
fuck yea.
i dunno, i started getting anxious and jumped in the pit & jay came with me for some german band he wanted to see.
oh and during subhumans, 3 dudes fell on top of me.
i thin kthat was the first time i was actually scared.
but that scared feeling went away after everyone just got the fuck off me.
jay is so cute.
i guess i fell, and jay punched the guy that pushed me over.
too cute.
i tell him i can handle myself.
but whatever....
so he had an inflamed right knee. and my left knee is shot. fucking black.
we're so bruised and sore.
and we discussed having sober nights.
we need them.
i love him.
last night we went to his friends show in west islip at the almost home.
i was just in a shitty mood.
i had fun...he's friends' band caught in a trap was really good.
oh thursday morning i also finished my back tattoo.
it came out sick.
he's going to touch it up after the nyc convention.
ok im done.
my aunt did come over.
i cracked open the bottle of wine. ok no, that's a lie.
my dad opened it for me.
i drank the whole thing by myself.
um yea, so dinner was pretty much everyone just laughing at me.
they all know im a lush... just never seen it in progress.
uh yea, i havne't seen jay since last night.
i really fucking miss him.
we both love each other so much... but occasionally get nervous or doubt the other one?
i dont know what it is.
maybe we're both so amazed that we're experiencing a mutual love for one another.
oh and having amazing sex.
that too.
thursday was soooooo much fun.
i saw the akas/unseen/casualties alone.
lame, but whatever.
the second i walked in the door at irving i ran up the stairs got a beer.
chugged it. and jumped in the circle pit.
i don't know if i say this every time... but that night, i had an amazing time in that pit.
i had so much fun, i was upset jay wasn't there to experience it with me.
friday = subhumans.
fuck yea.
i dunno, i started getting anxious and jumped in the pit & jay came with me for some german band he wanted to see.
oh and during subhumans, 3 dudes fell on top of me.
i thin kthat was the first time i was actually scared.
but that scared feeling went away after everyone just got the fuck off me.
jay is so cute.
i guess i fell, and jay punched the guy that pushed me over.
too cute.
i tell him i can handle myself.
but whatever....
so he had an inflamed right knee. and my left knee is shot. fucking black.
we're so bruised and sore.
and we discussed having sober nights.
we need them.
i love him.
last night we went to his friends show in west islip at the almost home.
i was just in a shitty mood.
i had fun...he's friends' band caught in a trap was really good.
oh thursday morning i also finished my back tattoo.
it came out sick.
he's going to touch it up after the nyc convention.
ok im done.