Due for a long update soon...
But for now..
I feel as though I finally understand how you must have felt all of those years...
Watching me as a grew & changed, waiting for your chance....
And yet I'm here, not waiting, no, but watching, silently...thinking of how it all seems like one big dream, that the world is full of this misery because we made & allowed it to be so.
You're always a part of me you know...thats just how life has destined us... we just are...
I know the seperation must hurt you too, it hurts me...
But at the same time, when I think of how it could be, I can't help but breathe a silent breath of relief...
Thank you for not staying...
But I hate you for leaving at the same time.
I wonder if you ever really knew me...
I wonder how well I really know myself
And although I am happy, there is this longing I feel...
For what, I really couldn't tell you...
But I know this, its been there for longer than I've known...
I thought I got myself to a point in my life where I had everything...
It still never ceases to amaze me how life can slip away so easily...
How happiness holds in front of it such a fragile wall of defence...
Just know, that I care...
*~*~*MUSIC*~*~*
I probably wouldn't be this way
I probably wouldn't hurt so bad
I never pictured every minute without you in it,
Oh you left so fast,
Sometimes I see you standing there
Sometimes it's like I'm losing touch
Sometimes I feel I'm so lucky to have had the chance to love this much
God give me moments grace
Cause if I'd nevber seen your face
I probably wouldn't be this way
*~*~Music~*~*
I miss my friend
The one my heart and soul confided in
The one I felt the safest with
The one who knew just what to say to make me laugh again
And let the light back in
I miss my friend
I feel as though I finally understand how you must have felt all of those years...
Watching me as a grew & changed, waiting for your chance....
And yet I'm here, not waiting, no, but watching, silently...thinking of how it all seems like one big dream, that the world is full of this misery because we made & allowed it to be so.
You're always a part of me you know...thats just how life has destined us... we just are...
I know the seperation must hurt you too, it hurts me...
But at the same time, when I think of how it could be, I can't help but breathe a silent breath of relief...
Thank you for not staying...
But I hate you for leaving at the same time.
I wonder if you ever really knew me...
I wonder how well I really know myself
And although I am happy, there is this longing I feel...
For what, I really couldn't tell you...
But I know this, its been there for longer than I've known...
I thought I got myself to a point in my life where I had everything...
It still never ceases to amaze me how life can slip away so easily...
How happiness holds in front of it such a fragile wall of defence...
Just know, that I care...
*~*~*MUSIC*~*~*
I probably wouldn't be this way
I probably wouldn't hurt so bad
I never pictured every minute without you in it,
Oh you left so fast,
Sometimes I see you standing there
Sometimes it's like I'm losing touch
Sometimes I feel I'm so lucky to have had the chance to love this much
God give me moments grace
Cause if I'd nevber seen your face
I probably wouldn't be this way
*~*~Music~*~*
I miss my friend
The one my heart and soul confided in
The one I felt the safest with
The one who knew just what to say to make me laugh again
And let the light back in
I miss my friend