happy post...sweeeet.
i'm done posting crappy things. i'm just exhausted. and whatever energy i have i'm putting towards happy things. so thurrr. can i just say that i LOOOVE the ilike application on facebook. i friggin love me some good music. and i don't mind that they are just clips either, b/c i have what my brother calls "radio ADD." anyway- it has inspired me to start relearning the guitar. the problem is my lack of free time and not knowing what the fuck i'm doing. there is a guy down the street that has a "guitar lessons" sign outside of his house...but i'm A. worried he's a sketch b/c why else would you live in my town? and B. i have no monies. i would like to try to con some money off of satan's money tree...she has been giving matt money for fireworks (which i have to say are awesome, we're talking 3 inch mortars here). and i feel that it is only fair she gives me money for something i'm NOT going to blow up. but you know...then it is back to when the fuck do i have time for this shit? damn you praxis and how all-consuming you are.
also- haha- okay- tell me if i'm a creeper. i met a guy at my family reuinion. STOP JUDGING ME. he was hot...why i thought for a minute that meeting men at family reuinions was wise..i don't know. it just sort of happened. turns out...we're related. SHUT UP. i know...BUT our only relation is that we have the same great great grandparents. now....is that reaaaalllly being related? or like...could i sleep with him and it not be sketchy. b/c part of me is like...dualing banjos. and the other is like...damn- he's really sexy and nice. i mean- he's like a third cousin or something removed...isn't he? he's like...not even in the gene pool anymore....whatever. i know- you all are like NO COURTNEY...NO. buti just wanted to hear your opinion. on a scale of 1-10...how sketchy am i being? haha...oh man. good times.
anyways, i should bring some closure to my old terrible posts. concerning the cigarettes i didn't confront my mom. and my brother smelled it too..but we just decided not to say anything. and i'm going to forget about it.
and...like i mentioned, this past weekend was a little reunion. and it went well, and was extremely therapeutic for our family who has unfortunately endured a lot of tragedy this year. I think it was essential that we had some sort of positively provoked gathering...instead of another goddamn funeral. which, never cease to weird me out. looking at dead people will never be comforting or bring me closure. but- hanging out with those who are still alive and kickin and keepin it real, that brings me closure. that brings me happiness. hearing stories about people who have passed away, that brings me comfort. i guess everyone grieves differently. but, probably not unexpectedly, sharing memories and stories with family and friends is my favorite thing and what seems to work best for me. i managed to see my cousins, Kelly and Colleen, once more before our school begins. and I've continued a personal project of scanning our millions of old photos into our computer. it's taking forever, but as of now, i have 130 scanned and only a couple more boxes to go. I'm trying to put some pictures of our ancestors on the walls of my great grandma's living room. i feel good about it. and it has been HELLA fascinating going through these old photos. and Matty has been donig some genealogical research of his own. he can now trace our family back into the 1400's. so we're wicked psyched about that. this has been therapeutic, too.
meanwhile, i continue to play softball a lot...and it is everything it always has been. softball is my lover. and it makes life awesome. i've been playing center field and second base..randomly. but i love both positions, and i'm continuing to be a student of the game. really trying to cultivate my abilities at each position. my hitting could be better, but all in all, i'm having a good time. the women on the team are funny...i think my enegery drives them nuts. apparently i'm chatty. if you've ever played softball with me, you know i talk so much between plays...during plays...whatever. it's a social game. and i'm a social person. i've yet to get anyone but cortney to come out with me after the games and celebrate. hopefully soon. and maybe-just maybe- if we continue our winning streak, we'll make it to the playoffs.
i hope so.
alright- longest post of all time. done and done.
also- haha- okay- tell me if i'm a creeper. i met a guy at my family reuinion. STOP JUDGING ME. he was hot...why i thought for a minute that meeting men at family reuinions was wise..i don't know. it just sort of happened. turns out...we're related. SHUT UP. i know...BUT our only relation is that we have the same great great grandparents. now....is that reaaaalllly being related? or like...could i sleep with him and it not be sketchy. b/c part of me is like...dualing banjos. and the other is like...damn- he's really sexy and nice. i mean- he's like a third cousin or something removed...isn't he? he's like...not even in the gene pool anymore....whatever. i know- you all are like NO COURTNEY...NO. buti just wanted to hear your opinion. on a scale of 1-10...how sketchy am i being? haha...oh man. good times.
anyways, i should bring some closure to my old terrible posts. concerning the cigarettes i didn't confront my mom. and my brother smelled it too..but we just decided not to say anything. and i'm going to forget about it.
and...like i mentioned, this past weekend was a little reunion. and it went well, and was extremely therapeutic for our family who has unfortunately endured a lot of tragedy this year. I think it was essential that we had some sort of positively provoked gathering...instead of another goddamn funeral. which, never cease to weird me out. looking at dead people will never be comforting or bring me closure. but- hanging out with those who are still alive and kickin and keepin it real, that brings me closure. that brings me happiness. hearing stories about people who have passed away, that brings me comfort. i guess everyone grieves differently. but, probably not unexpectedly, sharing memories and stories with family and friends is my favorite thing and what seems to work best for me. i managed to see my cousins, Kelly and Colleen, once more before our school begins. and I've continued a personal project of scanning our millions of old photos into our computer. it's taking forever, but as of now, i have 130 scanned and only a couple more boxes to go. I'm trying to put some pictures of our ancestors on the walls of my great grandma's living room. i feel good about it. and it has been HELLA fascinating going through these old photos. and Matty has been donig some genealogical research of his own. he can now trace our family back into the 1400's. so we're wicked psyched about that. this has been therapeutic, too.
meanwhile, i continue to play softball a lot...and it is everything it always has been. softball is my lover. and it makes life awesome. i've been playing center field and second base..randomly. but i love both positions, and i'm continuing to be a student of the game. really trying to cultivate my abilities at each position. my hitting could be better, but all in all, i'm having a good time. the women on the team are funny...i think my enegery drives them nuts. apparently i'm chatty. if you've ever played softball with me, you know i talk so much between plays...during plays...whatever. it's a social game. and i'm a social person. i've yet to get anyone but cortney to come out with me after the games and celebrate. hopefully soon. and maybe-just maybe- if we continue our winning streak, we'll make it to the playoffs.
i hope so.
alright- longest post of all time. done and done.