I'll wake up tomorrow
I had fun this weekend at home for the most part. I didnt get a tan though. I have like a tan line in the middle of my back, but what is the use in that? I went to the casino for the first time this weekend. I wasnt impressed at all. I played texas hold-'em and did alright. I've got a hundred dollar chip that I'm saving for a return chip with Ben. I think he'll make me tons of money with it. I bought Nyx a new collar this weekend. Its red, I wish I had a camera to take a picture of it. It looks alot better than the teal did, at least it stands out more.
I drove back this morning and made it in time for "class". I have no idea what he talked about but we only covered one short paragraph in the book. I also went to the therapist, which was my last trip until June. I sort of feel that I dont need to go back, but I like talking to him. I realize I still have temperment problems but I think that should go away with time and self-control.
I've been feeling odd all weekend and since I'm prone to crazy thinking, it sort of scares me. Its completely irrational, I felt like this last night and I was fine this morning, but I'm still scared. I'm bothered by it so much because I dont know why I am dizzy or experiencing vertigo or whatever the hell this is. I made my mom come and check on me a few times while I was sleeping in case something happened while I slept, but its not like she wasnt going to check on me anyway. I think she will contintue to check on me while i'm sleeping even when I've got children of my own.
Becky and I went and looked at the apartment again today. I cant wait until I live there rather than here. This place is either hot or cold and the trash bill never gets paid so we have icky trash sitting piling up at the dumpsters. I dont see how they can get away with that.
My family talked alot about Ben this weekend. Everyone seems to think that if he can stand me long enough to marry me then we will work out. That sort of statement is amazing coming from my mom, especially since she always told me that everyone gets one divorce. She didnt mean it literally, she was trying to tell me not to take it too seriously, but marriage is serious business. Anyway, I was looking forward to going to Ben's on friday but now I dont know what to do since Nyx can't come. I guess its awful to choose my cat over my boyfriend, but I would feel terrible leaving her for a month here without me. If only Houston wasn't 10 hours away. Ben even offered to drive to my mom's house every weekend so we could visit her there, but I would be scared she would hurt Pat or get out if she stayed there. I think I might leave next friday or so. That will also give me more money and the ability to pay bills and such here so I wouldnt have to worry about it later. I dont know, the cat is important, as is Ben, but Ben wouldnt think I was abandoning him if I was gone for three weeks. Who knows, I'll probably call my dad and ask him what he thinks I should do since he gives me good advice. Ben is so sweet to understand this thing with the cat and all the other random stuff I do, I'm so lucky.
I drove back this morning and made it in time for "class". I have no idea what he talked about but we only covered one short paragraph in the book. I also went to the therapist, which was my last trip until June. I sort of feel that I dont need to go back, but I like talking to him. I realize I still have temperment problems but I think that should go away with time and self-control.
I've been feeling odd all weekend and since I'm prone to crazy thinking, it sort of scares me. Its completely irrational, I felt like this last night and I was fine this morning, but I'm still scared. I'm bothered by it so much because I dont know why I am dizzy or experiencing vertigo or whatever the hell this is. I made my mom come and check on me a few times while I was sleeping in case something happened while I slept, but its not like she wasnt going to check on me anyway. I think she will contintue to check on me while i'm sleeping even when I've got children of my own.
Becky and I went and looked at the apartment again today. I cant wait until I live there rather than here. This place is either hot or cold and the trash bill never gets paid so we have icky trash sitting piling up at the dumpsters. I dont see how they can get away with that.
My family talked alot about Ben this weekend. Everyone seems to think that if he can stand me long enough to marry me then we will work out. That sort of statement is amazing coming from my mom, especially since she always told me that everyone gets one divorce. She didnt mean it literally, she was trying to tell me not to take it too seriously, but marriage is serious business. Anyway, I was looking forward to going to Ben's on friday but now I dont know what to do since Nyx can't come. I guess its awful to choose my cat over my boyfriend, but I would feel terrible leaving her for a month here without me. If only Houston wasn't 10 hours away. Ben even offered to drive to my mom's house every weekend so we could visit her there, but I would be scared she would hurt Pat or get out if she stayed there. I think I might leave next friday or so. That will also give me more money and the ability to pay bills and such here so I wouldnt have to worry about it later. I dont know, the cat is important, as is Ben, but Ben wouldnt think I was abandoning him if I was gone for three weeks. Who knows, I'll probably call my dad and ask him what he thinks I should do since he gives me good advice. Ben is so sweet to understand this thing with the cat and all the other random stuff I do, I'm so lucky.