I'm waiting for dry sheets
Some time has passed, things have happened. I declared a second major last month. I'm a microbiology and a biochemistry/molecular biology major. I think I may end up just as a microbiology major. I know that I want to get a doctorate in micro rather than biochem. Of all the things I keep announcing I'm going to be I think I'll most likely end-up as a scientist and professor.
I've got a job. I was dishes in dorman hall in a laboratory. If you look at my blog you'll see all the dishes I washed one day. Its a decent job not exciting, not demanding, and well-paying.
Nyx has gotten fat, as you can see in this picture. Her butt is so big compared to her head. She's about to become an even more well-traveled kitty. We're going to Houston (possibly) and Nashville and Virginia (definitely). She is so spoiled.
I withdrew from this semester today. I decided that I didn't want any bad grades anymore and a C is a bad grade. I gave up two A's and B, but salvaging my gpa is all I can think about right now. The withdrawing part sounds bad but I'll still be here in the summer and fall and I didn't lose any financial aid. So basically the only bad thing that comes from it is the loss of 15 hours.
Tomorrow at 9:30 I have an appointment to talk to my microbiology advisor about working in his lab for credit this summer. Even though I dropped his class I'm still going (got to make a good impression you know). I think this meeting is actually about what I will do while I work for him as opposed to getting the job, he and the TA pretty much recruited me. I may, and I hope for this more than anything, get my name on one of the grad student's paper. Can you imagine that?!? Its amazing!
I've been going to a therapist since last semester and I think its going really well. I started on Paxil, but I don't think I can take it anymore. Well, actually I've been off it for this week. I cried for the first time in about two months today and I know crying doesn't seem like a good thing, but when you can't feel any excess of emotion its great.
The best thing that has been happening recently is me getting along with my family. I haven't had an argument with my mom in forever and I haven't been unsociable or anything. In fact I talked to my dad's dad today on the phone, no less. Plus Ben and I are getting along wonderfully well. I cant believe how good things are right now. We had a sort of argument today, but it was more like a discussion and it ended up very well. There were no hurt feelings for long periods of time, no bad words, no name calling, or any bad things pretty much. I cant remember it detail for detail but I am sure it went well.
I have had alot more confidence in my abilities to talk to people in person or on the phone recently. I've actually talked to every teacher I had this semester but one and I will call people and ask questions about things. I still don't like doing it, but I will. I cant believe how nice people can actually be, especially in person. I apologized to the professor I worked for freshman year recently. It made me feel tons better to set that whole thing straight plus I hardly think about it anymore.
The thing that happened today between Ben and I was about Rachael, his best friend from high school. I realize that sometimes I was mean about her and as awful as it sounds I feel like I had a right to feel and act that way, but it wasn't right to put him through that. I do hope that one day things will be okay between us because I know she isnt going to go away and I dont want to force that to happen anyway. I know she doesnt hate me and I dont hate her but it will be difficult to get past what did happen before and everything. There is no way that we will ever be best friends or anything, but I do want to be cordial at least. Plus like Ben always says, we have alot in common.
Well I hope my sheets are dry now. I'm so sleepy.
I've got a job. I was dishes in dorman hall in a laboratory. If you look at my blog you'll see all the dishes I washed one day. Its a decent job not exciting, not demanding, and well-paying.
Nyx has gotten fat, as you can see in this picture. Her butt is so big compared to her head. She's about to become an even more well-traveled kitty. We're going to Houston (possibly) and Nashville and Virginia (definitely). She is so spoiled.
I withdrew from this semester today. I decided that I didn't want any bad grades anymore and a C is a bad grade. I gave up two A's and B, but salvaging my gpa is all I can think about right now. The withdrawing part sounds bad but I'll still be here in the summer and fall and I didn't lose any financial aid. So basically the only bad thing that comes from it is the loss of 15 hours.
Tomorrow at 9:30 I have an appointment to talk to my microbiology advisor about working in his lab for credit this summer. Even though I dropped his class I'm still going (got to make a good impression you know). I think this meeting is actually about what I will do while I work for him as opposed to getting the job, he and the TA pretty much recruited me. I may, and I hope for this more than anything, get my name on one of the grad student's paper. Can you imagine that?!? Its amazing!
I've been going to a therapist since last semester and I think its going really well. I started on Paxil, but I don't think I can take it anymore. Well, actually I've been off it for this week. I cried for the first time in about two months today and I know crying doesn't seem like a good thing, but when you can't feel any excess of emotion its great.
The best thing that has been happening recently is me getting along with my family. I haven't had an argument with my mom in forever and I haven't been unsociable or anything. In fact I talked to my dad's dad today on the phone, no less. Plus Ben and I are getting along wonderfully well. I cant believe how good things are right now. We had a sort of argument today, but it was more like a discussion and it ended up very well. There were no hurt feelings for long periods of time, no bad words, no name calling, or any bad things pretty much. I cant remember it detail for detail but I am sure it went well.
I have had alot more confidence in my abilities to talk to people in person or on the phone recently. I've actually talked to every teacher I had this semester but one and I will call people and ask questions about things. I still don't like doing it, but I will. I cant believe how nice people can actually be, especially in person. I apologized to the professor I worked for freshman year recently. It made me feel tons better to set that whole thing straight plus I hardly think about it anymore.
The thing that happened today between Ben and I was about Rachael, his best friend from high school. I realize that sometimes I was mean about her and as awful as it sounds I feel like I had a right to feel and act that way, but it wasn't right to put him through that. I do hope that one day things will be okay between us because I know she isnt going to go away and I dont want to force that to happen anyway. I know she doesnt hate me and I dont hate her but it will be difficult to get past what did happen before and everything. There is no way that we will ever be best friends or anything, but I do want to be cordial at least. Plus like Ben always says, we have alot in common.
Well I hope my sheets are dry now. I'm so sleepy.