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girl
you'll be a woman soon
my self-homophobia flared up todya
i think it's the new haircut
makes me a bit paranoid
expect people to ask me if i'm gay
because i pass as a guy half the time if i wear a baggy shirt like i did today
but wouldn't people expect a gay man to work at a shoe store?
i don't know
it seems to make people a little nervous because if i do pass as male I look tons younger
i have no facial hair and my voice isn't exactly deep
work sucked today
i was all emotional because i was missing kas and i really didn't wanna be at work where i was feeling all pensive and up in my head
so my mananger told me to take a break and clock out for awhile
she said "take your time"
i started biking home so i could sit in my room for a bit and i saw some friends hanging out on their porch so i stopped and hung out
i felt loads better because i was around people i trusted and loved
and so i decided to call work and say i was still feeling pretty upset and i'd rather take the rest of the day for myself and if they need me to com eback in because it's busy i'd come back
well, that message got relayed to my manager
i'm not sure in what form
but she calls me and asks me not to repay her offer to let me take a break by telling them i'm not coming back in
and that she'd see me in 20min
...
i get back to work and break down and so i go sit in the break room for an hour
bleh
things got better as i returned after work to friend's house and watched a very cheesy 80s movie
but i have work again today and hopefully it will be better
it's hard not having a biological family to fall back on
i just feel alone sometimes
you'll be a woman soon
my self-homophobia flared up todya
i think it's the new haircut
makes me a bit paranoid
expect people to ask me if i'm gay
because i pass as a guy half the time if i wear a baggy shirt like i did today
but wouldn't people expect a gay man to work at a shoe store?
i don't know
it seems to make people a little nervous because if i do pass as male I look tons younger
i have no facial hair and my voice isn't exactly deep
work sucked today
i was all emotional because i was missing kas and i really didn't wanna be at work where i was feeling all pensive and up in my head
so my mananger told me to take a break and clock out for awhile
she said "take your time"
i started biking home so i could sit in my room for a bit and i saw some friends hanging out on their porch so i stopped and hung out
i felt loads better because i was around people i trusted and loved
and so i decided to call work and say i was still feeling pretty upset and i'd rather take the rest of the day for myself and if they need me to com eback in because it's busy i'd come back
well, that message got relayed to my manager
i'm not sure in what form
but she calls me and asks me not to repay her offer to let me take a break by telling them i'm not coming back in
and that she'd see me in 20min
...
i get back to work and break down and so i go sit in the break room for an hour
bleh
things got better as i returned after work to friend's house and watched a very cheesy 80s movie
but i have work again today and hopefully it will be better
it's hard not having a biological family to fall back on
i just feel alone sometimes