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could i be more of a mess right now? if i were drunk, yeah easy. but im completely sober and im a mess. a train wreck. and its only been like a week? yeah ... so much for two years.
and i wish it were up to me, becasue maybe if it were, i would actually do something about this. i know i would actually do something about this. i wouldnt be a pansy and take it lying down, i would fight, i want to fight and keep on fighting, but what good is fighting if your the only one running into the battlefield?
i stand no chance.
i dont know what im going to do with all this pain. i'll live, i know that by now, but with less of me, less love, less heart, more heartache.
am i not good enough? because thats how i feel. am i not good enough to love? 110%?
i wish that for every tear that i cried, there was somesort of guarantee that there will be a smile.
and i hate waiting, waiting for you to give some excuse, when in reality, i know that its becasue im not good enough.
i need all the strength i can muster to pick up the broken pieces and move on. so why am i still standing in one place?
and i wish it were up to me, becasue maybe if it were, i would actually do something about this. i know i would actually do something about this. i wouldnt be a pansy and take it lying down, i would fight, i want to fight and keep on fighting, but what good is fighting if your the only one running into the battlefield?
i stand no chance.
i dont know what im going to do with all this pain. i'll live, i know that by now, but with less of me, less love, less heart, more heartache.
am i not good enough? because thats how i feel. am i not good enough to love? 110%?
i wish that for every tear that i cried, there was somesort of guarantee that there will be a smile.
and i hate waiting, waiting for you to give some excuse, when in reality, i know that its becasue im not good enough.
i need all the strength i can muster to pick up the broken pieces and move on. so why am i still standing in one place?