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hmmmmmmmmmmm. where to start???
Why is it that I am stupid enough to keep coming back for more? seriously... i need to cut this shit out. i am so tired of trying to get my thoughts and feelings through to you so you would understand. now i just realize you dont give a shit. im not going to sit around and waste my time waiting for your ass to fucking magically decide you want to talk to me about things. especially after you have chosen to ignore and not respond to my phone calls since sunday. im tired of putting so much time and effort and money and everything else into this. when all i ask of you is to be there for me through this. and you cant manage to do that. because u claim i cant act like a normal person. im tired of giving you time. i didnt have time to deal with this. you should feel so lucky that you have the opportunity to still be away at school. i will never have that. you arent making this situation any better and youre treating me worse now, then ever before. ugh i cant take it anymore. i have started to pretend like i dont give a shit anymore. because its not fair to me and this little life im carrying to deal with your bullshit and be treated this way. you need to be a man and step up to your responsibility. i cant even deal talking about this anymore im going to burst into tears any moment.
moving on...
i went on a hot date to starbucks last nite with my wonderful katy. we sat there with our coffees for 2 hours talking about everything. now we have plans to do that once a week. yay! it feels good to have a friend to go out with and talk to and get everything off my chest. even if she may not understand exactly what im going through, shes willing to listen and help me out however she can. i love her and shes the best ever!
and on another note. my boobs have gotten so unbelievably big they are gross. and my nipples look funny now. i swear i will NEVER be sexy again. especially when i never hear that i am now...
fuck off.
im out.
Why is it that I am stupid enough to keep coming back for more? seriously... i need to cut this shit out. i am so tired of trying to get my thoughts and feelings through to you so you would understand. now i just realize you dont give a shit. im not going to sit around and waste my time waiting for your ass to fucking magically decide you want to talk to me about things. especially after you have chosen to ignore and not respond to my phone calls since sunday. im tired of putting so much time and effort and money and everything else into this. when all i ask of you is to be there for me through this. and you cant manage to do that. because u claim i cant act like a normal person. im tired of giving you time. i didnt have time to deal with this. you should feel so lucky that you have the opportunity to still be away at school. i will never have that. you arent making this situation any better and youre treating me worse now, then ever before. ugh i cant take it anymore. i have started to pretend like i dont give a shit anymore. because its not fair to me and this little life im carrying to deal with your bullshit and be treated this way. you need to be a man and step up to your responsibility. i cant even deal talking about this anymore im going to burst into tears any moment.
moving on...
i went on a hot date to starbucks last nite with my wonderful katy. we sat there with our coffees for 2 hours talking about everything. now we have plans to do that once a week. yay! it feels good to have a friend to go out with and talk to and get everything off my chest. even if she may not understand exactly what im going through, shes willing to listen and help me out however she can. i love her and shes the best ever!
and on another note. my boobs have gotten so unbelievably big they are gross. and my nipples look funny now. i swear i will NEVER be sexy again. especially when i never hear that i am now...
fuck off.
im out.