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So, I don't know what happened monday, but halfway through the day, I got into a mood where everything is going to be ok. i said to myself that i need to and want to look at this from a better angle. I do feel like that this could work if we both put in the effort. if we can't date, then i want to be his best friend. not just a good friend but his best friend. i discussed this to him but i still got a feeling that he was trying to distance himself a little bit from me. he even said that he didn't want to do this and kinda lead me on if i still had romantic feelings for him. then i told him that i wouldn't have come to him and told him this, if i didn't feel comfortable with it or that i couldn't take it.
well lately, i've been trying to just hang out with him or just see him and say hi but it seems like that hasn't been working either because i just kinda feel like he's trying to distance himself from me. i've talked to some close friends about that and they all seem to agree that i just need to give it time and that it's not all going to come together at once, even though that is what i want, for it to come together all at once lol. o well. i do know that i have some issues with being patient and being patient with this is not helping haha. i'm still trying to find the good outcomes in things but sometimes i can't help it and think of all of the wrong things. i don't know... all i do know is that i would love for us at this point be able to be great friends that hang out with each other A LOT and be able rely on each other like we did when we were dating but without the romantic/sexual stuff when we were dating. i can be totally fine with that. i just hope that he feels the same and puts in the effort like i am. because i don't want to lose him as a friend. yes, losing him as a boyfriend was a plunge in my heart but it would tear my heart to pieces if we weren't really really really good friends. i just want to hang out with him like we use to and it's making me a little sad that it isn't up to the same level that it was. because i know what will happen, it happened with my high school friends, if we don't make the effort to hang out and be friends then we will lose contact (as in talking to each other) and then we won't speak to each other at all expect for the twice a year messages on facebook saying, "hey! haven't talked to you a while, how are you?" and then someone will respond back by saying, "good" and then that's it until the next facebook message.
Why can't we hang out as much as we use to? I'm comfortable with it and I don't feel awkward around him, so what's the deal?
well lately, i've been trying to just hang out with him or just see him and say hi but it seems like that hasn't been working either because i just kinda feel like he's trying to distance himself from me. i've talked to some close friends about that and they all seem to agree that i just need to give it time and that it's not all going to come together at once, even though that is what i want, for it to come together all at once lol. o well. i do know that i have some issues with being patient and being patient with this is not helping haha. i'm still trying to find the good outcomes in things but sometimes i can't help it and think of all of the wrong things. i don't know... all i do know is that i would love for us at this point be able to be great friends that hang out with each other A LOT and be able rely on each other like we did when we were dating but without the romantic/sexual stuff when we were dating. i can be totally fine with that. i just hope that he feels the same and puts in the effort like i am. because i don't want to lose him as a friend. yes, losing him as a boyfriend was a plunge in my heart but it would tear my heart to pieces if we weren't really really really good friends. i just want to hang out with him like we use to and it's making me a little sad that it isn't up to the same level that it was. because i know what will happen, it happened with my high school friends, if we don't make the effort to hang out and be friends then we will lose contact (as in talking to each other) and then we won't speak to each other at all expect for the twice a year messages on facebook saying, "hey! haven't talked to you a while, how are you?" and then someone will respond back by saying, "good" and then that's it until the next facebook message.
Why can't we hang out as much as we use to? I'm comfortable with it and I don't feel awkward around him, so what's the deal?