i wish
i wish that life was designed differently...
...that growing up was better than childhood. i know, i know...i've said this before, but in my mind nothing beats the joy, the energy, the innocence of youth. the best thing that happened today was not the part where i ran around town requesting transcripts, turning in an application, seeking a new job. no! it was when a friend popped in unexpectedly and ask, "do you wanna play?" really i find it very neccessary to fit in more play into the day. play is a good form of exercise, it brings joy and memories of childhood. i saw a tree and thought i'd like to climb this...so i did. later when i returned home i sat in the sun and remembered how i'd climb the tree in our backyard as a child. i looked at the tree and noticed that the branches i used to climb up were chopped off. i turned to my mother devistated and asked when they were cut off. i felt as though those branches were taken from me. that i was no longer allowed to be that child exploring from above. to me growing up takes away curiousity, imagination, and exploration. growing up sucks. the only things growing up gives you is studying, exams, essays, internships, careers, insurance policies, bills, schedules, deadlines, meetings, blah, blah, blah....and then retirement...are you kidding me? i don't wanna wait until i'm old and pruney to play! sheesh!
i wish that you knew that i sincerely care for you...
...yes you...all of you reading this, and many who may never read this. all my friends. those i talk to on a daily bases, and those i talk to very little. if i've met you and had a conversation that has gone beyond, "hi. how are you?" then i care for you. when i hear that you are sad...i'm sad for you and want to make your day brighter. when you're happy...my heart smiles, and i want to share in your joy. when you're mourning i want to embrace you, listen, and be what you need me to be...or just let you mourn if that's what you need. i don't think of myself as a shallow person. i hope you see me for what i am...in joy and sadness i'm here for you my friends.
i wish that you would think of me the way i think of you...
...why are some of us so lonely? or why is it that we feel so lonely? i think about this all the time...well because i'm a girl, and i'm an adult who just is awkward...i guess. single all my life. when someone notices me i want to hide. thinking they won't really like me once they know who i am. all these people tell me i'm so great, and i've got so much time, and the one for me is gonna be one lucky guy. but i want something to start. why are some guys scared of me? whenever i have been straight forward...things just fizzle out. so i try to be subtle...which doesn't work either. yes i like someone right now (and if you don't know about it already i probably won't tell you anyway)...why doesn't he notice? or does he? i'm so curious...but i'm afraid of ruining it. my mom was telling me that the best relationships that she was in were the ones where the guy persued her...ok. that sounds nice...just sit back and wait for it to happen, but it hasn't, and i wonder if it ever will.
...that growing up was better than childhood. i know, i know...i've said this before, but in my mind nothing beats the joy, the energy, the innocence of youth. the best thing that happened today was not the part where i ran around town requesting transcripts, turning in an application, seeking a new job. no! it was when a friend popped in unexpectedly and ask, "do you wanna play?" really i find it very neccessary to fit in more play into the day. play is a good form of exercise, it brings joy and memories of childhood. i saw a tree and thought i'd like to climb this...so i did. later when i returned home i sat in the sun and remembered how i'd climb the tree in our backyard as a child. i looked at the tree and noticed that the branches i used to climb up were chopped off. i turned to my mother devistated and asked when they were cut off. i felt as though those branches were taken from me. that i was no longer allowed to be that child exploring from above. to me growing up takes away curiousity, imagination, and exploration. growing up sucks. the only things growing up gives you is studying, exams, essays, internships, careers, insurance policies, bills, schedules, deadlines, meetings, blah, blah, blah....and then retirement...are you kidding me? i don't wanna wait until i'm old and pruney to play! sheesh!
i wish that you knew that i sincerely care for you...
...yes you...all of you reading this, and many who may never read this. all my friends. those i talk to on a daily bases, and those i talk to very little. if i've met you and had a conversation that has gone beyond, "hi. how are you?" then i care for you. when i hear that you are sad...i'm sad for you and want to make your day brighter. when you're happy...my heart smiles, and i want to share in your joy. when you're mourning i want to embrace you, listen, and be what you need me to be...or just let you mourn if that's what you need. i don't think of myself as a shallow person. i hope you see me for what i am...in joy and sadness i'm here for you my friends.
i wish that you would think of me the way i think of you...
...why are some of us so lonely? or why is it that we feel so lonely? i think about this all the time...well because i'm a girl, and i'm an adult who just is awkward...i guess. single all my life. when someone notices me i want to hide. thinking they won't really like me once they know who i am. all these people tell me i'm so great, and i've got so much time, and the one for me is gonna be one lucky guy. but i want something to start. why are some guys scared of me? whenever i have been straight forward...things just fizzle out. so i try to be subtle...which doesn't work either. yes i like someone right now (and if you don't know about it already i probably won't tell you anyway)...why doesn't he notice? or does he? i'm so curious...but i'm afraid of ruining it. my mom was telling me that the best relationships that she was in were the ones where the guy persued her...ok. that sounds nice...just sit back and wait for it to happen, but it hasn't, and i wonder if it ever will.