Five gtop drabbles
Sleep -> In those moments they'd end up in the same bed after all.
Remember -> ...and there's the image of flexed muscles, slightly wet mouth, nails bitten.
Maknae -> Somehow they end up talking about the kiss.
Twitter -> "What's so interesting anyway?" he went on, "is it that Twitter again?"
Coffee -> For awhile Jiyong can't drink coffee without picturing Seunghyun's lips on his.
1. Sleep
Jiyong has slept with all the Big Bang members.
Less awkward phrasing: he has slept in the same bed as all the Big Bang members.
With Seungri there is the struggle for blankets and the now traditional complaining ("hyung, you're suffocating me!" "--maknae, stop whining, go to sleep") because honestly, he doesn't hug him that hard.
With Daesung there is peacefulness except for the occasional mumbled complaint about how 'Jiyong-hyung moves too much in his sleep.' (It really are always the maknaes.)
With Taeyang there is soundless sleep, the two of them fine-tuned to each other even when unconscious: both used to sleeping on hard floors, sore back muscles, each other's silent company when everyone else has long gone home.
And with Seunghyun... well, with Seunghyun there are a lot of things. For starters, they don't often sleep in the same bed. They had, sometimes, when still trainees or shortly after; but soon it had started to feel awkward (in a way maybe always had) and therefore stopped doing it without any words on the subject spilled.
Jiyong wasn't sure what there was to say anyway, or maybe just didn't want to touch upon the possibilities.
And anyway, Seunghyun liked his space and Jiyong always had the maknae. Still, sometimes -- when they were too tired to be (ir)rational and merely wanted to pass out, and they realised it was more comfortable doing that with someone right next to you -- in those moments they ended up in the same bed after all.
Then they'd move close to one another, Jiyong with his back to him and Seunghyun enclosing him fully, bodies slotting together, seeming as though they'd done this for years and years and maybe that was the part that really scared Jiyong.
No complaints followed, nor any fighting over blankets, except of the obligatory joking kind. Mostly they just slept: soundly and deep.
Then hours later there came the moment between sleeping and waking, eyes closed but senses aware -- of Seunghyun's arms around him, of their legs intertwined, the warm breath in his ear -- and his chest a contradiction of chaos and odd tranquility.
Later still there was the moment when they had both awoken and briefly turned to look at each other, still warm from the recent sleep, still entangled, still not entirely in their right minds; and Jiyong's heart beat loudly in the quiet bedroom as the thought will he do something? flitted through his mind, shortened in the same breath to do something.
And then there was the moment when Seunghyun cast his eyes downward for a second and Jiyong moved slightly and the spell was broken and the hollow disappointed feeling in his gut would soon fade away.
It always did, after all.
2. Remember
"Why can't you remember the lyrics?" Jiyong grunts out, exasperated, forgetting that a perfect knowledge of Japanese had never been in the job description all those years ago -- and Seunghyun tries, and forgets, and wishes he could rap in English instead.
"The dance steps are like this," Jiyong repeats for the fifth time, leader mode on: and Seunghyun wipes the sweat from his forehad, thinks yeah, that's easy for you to say.
("Jiyongie," Seunghyun mumbles -- and there's the image of flexed muscles, slightly wet mouth, nails bitten, neck gleaming with sweat, eyes bright, voice hoarse, brow furrowed, scent smoky, unwavering gaze, fleeting touches -- own heart hammering as he remembers it all.)
3. Maknae
Somehow they end up talking about the kiss.
They're in the car, waiting to go home after a late-night dinner, and Seungri says, "Ah, actually it was not that bad... a little bit strange, but... TOP-hyung's lips are very soft, you know."
Jiyong momentarily freezes; relaxes again.
"That's kind of a weird thing to say," he laughs, and ignores the bit where it's his nerves and not the situation that makes him smile.
"Well, at least you had it easy, hyung," Seungri says, searching his pockets for chewing gum (teeth and breath are the maknaes' priority after a meal, garlic or not.)
Jiyong accepts the gum that's being offered to him and says teasingly, "What, because you had it so hard? Doest it make you lay awake at night?"
Seungri pops one in his mouth and makes a sound that could be a scoff or a sign of amusement. "No, but with you and Seunghyun-hyung it was just a peck... and our scene -- I mean, it was very intense and there were many takes..."
"I also had to do it more than once," Jiyong remarks, and frowns because he had not intended to say that.
"Really?" Seungri regards him curiously.
"Yeah," he answers and wills his expression to be casual. After a couple seconds of silence he still adds despite himself, "Three times."
"Oh. Well, at least it was still less awkward than our scene, right?" Seungri says and Jiyong wonders why his voice is so soothing before he realises that the maknae is trying to reassure him.
He feels a familiar surge of affection.
The car sets into motion and soon the window shows the usual nightly sequence of neon-lights; tall buildings; people milling about.
There's silence for awhile. Jiyong stares at nothing in particular.
"It was not supposed to be a full kiss," he says, suddenly, and feels his breath stutter as he wonders why he brought that up. He fiddles with the zipper of his jacket; keeps his gaze fixed on the scenery outside.
"But Seunghyunnie-hyung... well, he's an actor after all, so he must have been immersed in the scene...?"
He finally gazes to his left as the question drifts off; is met with Seungri's unreadable expression.
"Yes, TOP-hyung is a great actor," the maknae answers, nodding to himself. "But perhaps... even really great actors choose to ignore the script sometimes?"
Jiyong has to fight a smile for the rest of the car ride.
4. Twitter
"Jiyongie, all you do these days is look at your phone..."
The comment came out a little more whiny than intended, but then again, all Jiyong did do these days was look at his phone.
"What's so interesting anyway?" he went on, "is it that Twitter again?"
Jiyong scoffed a little, slouched lowly in his seat, but there still was a certain amusement in his voice as he replied, "Don't talk bout things you don't know anything about, hyung, you'll only embarrass yourself."
Seunghyun raised an eyebrow in indignation and held out his hand. "Well then, show me so I'll know more about it."
"What?"
"Show me your Twitter," he clarified, and there was a certain look of apprehension there before Jiyong's expression settled on one of reluctant resignation.
"You wouldn't even know how to access it," Jiyong sighed, and, ignoring Seunghyun's extended hand, held the phone before his nose instead. "Here. See? My Twitter profile."
Seunghyun squinted at the screen. "I...b...gdrgn? 'I be gdragon'," Seunghyun laughed and Jiyong's cheeks heated a little.
"It's clever," he mumbled defensively, making to move his hand again but Seunghyun grabbed it before it could do so.
"No, wait, let me see... scroll down, what did you post just now?"
"I was just talking to some people," Jiyong replied evasively and made another attempt to remove his hand.
Seunghyun merely tightened his grip.
"Yeah, who are all these people?" he wondered out loud, feeling a little fascinated as he scrolled down. "Oh, that's Youngbae," he grinned in recognition as he could feel Jiyong glare at him.
"This is creepy," he complained.
"What, me looking at your Twitter?" Seunghyun didn't bother to look sideways as he scrolled down some more. "Oh, who's this?" He squinted at the screen to try to decipher the username.
"You stalking my Twitter," Jiyong corrected him, and made another unfruitful attempt to free his phone.
Seunghyun actually had to laugh at that because really? "Jiyong, this is the first time I've actually seen your Twitter! I mean, it's accessible to everyone right? So how am I being creepy?"
"Because you're you and you're creepy," Jiyong replied in a reply that wasn't a reply at all.
Seunghyun only scrolled down some more.
And then stopped.
"Hey, that's a picture of me and --
"--okay, hand it back now."
There was a three-second pause. Then Jiyong sighed.
"All right fine, I posted a picture with you in it because the fans were asking for it, and anyway, you'd be indignant if I didn't mention you at all on Twitter, so."
Seunghyun opened his mouth in instant protest but then closed it again because Jiyong was right.
Obviously.
He looked a bit more at the picture. Their drunkenness was obvious even on the tiny screen. His party hat didn't seem as good now as it had seemed then.
"You need to have a better picture," Seunghyun suddenly declared, and handed him back his smartphone.
"I -- what?" Jiyong asked.
"We're already wearing matching sweaters," Seunghyun said, feeling a bit amused (and a little impulsive) and anyway, what else was there to do when you were waiting for a photoshoot to resume?
A tiny, happy smirk appeared on Jiyong's face as he caught on.
"Who's vain now, huh?" he said before scooting closer to him. "All right, on three."
(Jiyong later informed him that it had become his most popular Twitter picture. Seunghyun had already checked.)
5. Coffee
For awhile Jiyong can't drink coffee without picturing Seunghyun's lips on his.
Black coffee is all right; a little sugar or milk already makes it more difficult; but cappuccino is downright problematic.
It's not like this is his fault -- it's not like he wants to be constantly reminded of that one particular episode in their relationship.
But the human mind has the tendency to connect one thing to another and so now cappuccino and Seunghyun's lips are inextricably linked.
If there's anyone to blame it's Seunghyun-hyung himself, who ignored the script without any warning whatsoever beforehand.
Like: 'I'm going to kiss you out of nowhere and it's going to be on the mouth, not the cheek.'
Or: 'I'm going to lick the foam from your lips and you're going to like it.'
And: 'There might be tongue.'
Not that might is an accurate word choice here, because he's pretty sure there was tongue.
And also, the 'You're going to like it' bit is rather ambiguous, because though he might not have actively disliked it, that's not to say he liked it.
Much.
For example, TOP's lips had been chapped, it being February and his lips always being chapped that time of year. It didn't feel unpleasant -- rather nice actually -- but not that nice.
Also the way Seunghyun's hands had felt so strong, clasped around his own and then lifting his chin... that could probably also count as a reason for disliking the kiss. Well, personally he had rather enjoyed that aspect (in an non-creepy way) but, you know.
Objectively speaking Seunghyun did have nice hands.
And lips.
Mmm.
"What are you smiling about?"
Jiyong spits out his coffee (coffee? why was he drinking coffee?) as the very same Seunghyun sits down in the seat opposite him.
His face looks a little bit alarmed, but mostly amused, which is probably due to his dongsaeng spilling drinks all over the place.
"Nothing," Jiyong coughs, "I just -- coffee," as if that explains everything. Well, it sort of does.
Seunghyung smiles.
"There's a little something on your face."
"Eh?"
"Seunghyun indicates the spot at his right mouth corner. Jiyong lifts a finger. There's some foam there.
"That reminds me of something," Seunghyun says, voice laced with a particular kind of amusement.
And suddenly -- it's deja vu all over.
Remember -> ...and there's the image of flexed muscles, slightly wet mouth, nails bitten.
Maknae -> Somehow they end up talking about the kiss.
Twitter -> "What's so interesting anyway?" he went on, "is it that Twitter again?"
Coffee -> For awhile Jiyong can't drink coffee without picturing Seunghyun's lips on his.
1. Sleep
Jiyong has slept with all the Big Bang members.
Less awkward phrasing: he has slept in the same bed as all the Big Bang members.
With Seungri there is the struggle for blankets and the now traditional complaining ("hyung, you're suffocating me!" "--maknae, stop whining, go to sleep") because honestly, he doesn't hug him that hard.
With Daesung there is peacefulness except for the occasional mumbled complaint about how 'Jiyong-hyung moves too much in his sleep.' (It really are always the maknaes.)
With Taeyang there is soundless sleep, the two of them fine-tuned to each other even when unconscious: both used to sleeping on hard floors, sore back muscles, each other's silent company when everyone else has long gone home.
And with Seunghyun... well, with Seunghyun there are a lot of things. For starters, they don't often sleep in the same bed. They had, sometimes, when still trainees or shortly after; but soon it had started to feel awkward (in a way maybe always had) and therefore stopped doing it without any words on the subject spilled.
Jiyong wasn't sure what there was to say anyway, or maybe just didn't want to touch upon the possibilities.
And anyway, Seunghyun liked his space and Jiyong always had the maknae. Still, sometimes -- when they were too tired to be (ir)rational and merely wanted to pass out, and they realised it was more comfortable doing that with someone right next to you -- in those moments they ended up in the same bed after all.
Then they'd move close to one another, Jiyong with his back to him and Seunghyun enclosing him fully, bodies slotting together, seeming as though they'd done this for years and years and maybe that was the part that really scared Jiyong.
No complaints followed, nor any fighting over blankets, except of the obligatory joking kind. Mostly they just slept: soundly and deep.
Then hours later there came the moment between sleeping and waking, eyes closed but senses aware -- of Seunghyun's arms around him, of their legs intertwined, the warm breath in his ear -- and his chest a contradiction of chaos and odd tranquility.
Later still there was the moment when they had both awoken and briefly turned to look at each other, still warm from the recent sleep, still entangled, still not entirely in their right minds; and Jiyong's heart beat loudly in the quiet bedroom as the thought will he do something? flitted through his mind, shortened in the same breath to do something.
And then there was the moment when Seunghyun cast his eyes downward for a second and Jiyong moved slightly and the spell was broken and the hollow disappointed feeling in his gut would soon fade away.
It always did, after all.
2. Remember
"Why can't you remember the lyrics?" Jiyong grunts out, exasperated, forgetting that a perfect knowledge of Japanese had never been in the job description all those years ago -- and Seunghyun tries, and forgets, and wishes he could rap in English instead.
"The dance steps are like this," Jiyong repeats for the fifth time, leader mode on: and Seunghyun wipes the sweat from his forehad, thinks yeah, that's easy for you to say.
("Jiyongie," Seunghyun mumbles -- and there's the image of flexed muscles, slightly wet mouth, nails bitten, neck gleaming with sweat, eyes bright, voice hoarse, brow furrowed, scent smoky, unwavering gaze, fleeting touches -- own heart hammering as he remembers it all.)
3. Maknae
Somehow they end up talking about the kiss.
They're in the car, waiting to go home after a late-night dinner, and Seungri says, "Ah, actually it was not that bad... a little bit strange, but... TOP-hyung's lips are very soft, you know."
Jiyong momentarily freezes; relaxes again.
"That's kind of a weird thing to say," he laughs, and ignores the bit where it's his nerves and not the situation that makes him smile.
"Well, at least you had it easy, hyung," Seungri says, searching his pockets for chewing gum (teeth and breath are the maknaes' priority after a meal, garlic or not.)
Jiyong accepts the gum that's being offered to him and says teasingly, "What, because you had it so hard? Doest it make you lay awake at night?"
Seungri pops one in his mouth and makes a sound that could be a scoff or a sign of amusement. "No, but with you and Seunghyun-hyung it was just a peck... and our scene -- I mean, it was very intense and there were many takes..."
"I also had to do it more than once," Jiyong remarks, and frowns because he had not intended to say that.
"Really?" Seungri regards him curiously.
"Yeah," he answers and wills his expression to be casual. After a couple seconds of silence he still adds despite himself, "Three times."
"Oh. Well, at least it was still less awkward than our scene, right?" Seungri says and Jiyong wonders why his voice is so soothing before he realises that the maknae is trying to reassure him.
He feels a familiar surge of affection.
The car sets into motion and soon the window shows the usual nightly sequence of neon-lights; tall buildings; people milling about.
There's silence for awhile. Jiyong stares at nothing in particular.
"It was not supposed to be a full kiss," he says, suddenly, and feels his breath stutter as he wonders why he brought that up. He fiddles with the zipper of his jacket; keeps his gaze fixed on the scenery outside.
"But Seunghyunnie-hyung... well, he's an actor after all, so he must have been immersed in the scene...?"
He finally gazes to his left as the question drifts off; is met with Seungri's unreadable expression.
"Yes, TOP-hyung is a great actor," the maknae answers, nodding to himself. "But perhaps... even really great actors choose to ignore the script sometimes?"
Jiyong has to fight a smile for the rest of the car ride.
4. Twitter
"Jiyongie, all you do these days is look at your phone..."
The comment came out a little more whiny than intended, but then again, all Jiyong did do these days was look at his phone.
"What's so interesting anyway?" he went on, "is it that Twitter again?"
Jiyong scoffed a little, slouched lowly in his seat, but there still was a certain amusement in his voice as he replied, "Don't talk bout things you don't know anything about, hyung, you'll only embarrass yourself."
Seunghyun raised an eyebrow in indignation and held out his hand. "Well then, show me so I'll know more about it."
"What?"
"Show me your Twitter," he clarified, and there was a certain look of apprehension there before Jiyong's expression settled on one of reluctant resignation.
"You wouldn't even know how to access it," Jiyong sighed, and, ignoring Seunghyun's extended hand, held the phone before his nose instead. "Here. See? My Twitter profile."
Seunghyun squinted at the screen. "I...b...gdrgn? 'I be gdragon'," Seunghyun laughed and Jiyong's cheeks heated a little.
"It's clever," he mumbled defensively, making to move his hand again but Seunghyun grabbed it before it could do so.
"No, wait, let me see... scroll down, what did you post just now?"
"I was just talking to some people," Jiyong replied evasively and made another attempt to remove his hand.
Seunghyun merely tightened his grip.
"Yeah, who are all these people?" he wondered out loud, feeling a little fascinated as he scrolled down. "Oh, that's Youngbae," he grinned in recognition as he could feel Jiyong glare at him.
"This is creepy," he complained.
"What, me looking at your Twitter?" Seunghyun didn't bother to look sideways as he scrolled down some more. "Oh, who's this?" He squinted at the screen to try to decipher the username.
"You stalking my Twitter," Jiyong corrected him, and made another unfruitful attempt to free his phone.
Seunghyun actually had to laugh at that because really? "Jiyong, this is the first time I've actually seen your Twitter! I mean, it's accessible to everyone right? So how am I being creepy?"
"Because you're you and you're creepy," Jiyong replied in a reply that wasn't a reply at all.
Seunghyun only scrolled down some more.
And then stopped.
"Hey, that's a picture of me and --
"--okay, hand it back now."
There was a three-second pause. Then Jiyong sighed.
"All right fine, I posted a picture with you in it because the fans were asking for it, and anyway, you'd be indignant if I didn't mention you at all on Twitter, so."
Seunghyun opened his mouth in instant protest but then closed it again because Jiyong was right.
Obviously.
He looked a bit more at the picture. Their drunkenness was obvious even on the tiny screen. His party hat didn't seem as good now as it had seemed then.
"You need to have a better picture," Seunghyun suddenly declared, and handed him back his smartphone.
"I -- what?" Jiyong asked.
"We're already wearing matching sweaters," Seunghyun said, feeling a bit amused (and a little impulsive) and anyway, what else was there to do when you were waiting for a photoshoot to resume?
A tiny, happy smirk appeared on Jiyong's face as he caught on.
"Who's vain now, huh?" he said before scooting closer to him. "All right, on three."
(Jiyong later informed him that it had become his most popular Twitter picture. Seunghyun had already checked.)
5. Coffee
For awhile Jiyong can't drink coffee without picturing Seunghyun's lips on his.
Black coffee is all right; a little sugar or milk already makes it more difficult; but cappuccino is downright problematic.
It's not like this is his fault -- it's not like he wants to be constantly reminded of that one particular episode in their relationship.
But the human mind has the tendency to connect one thing to another and so now cappuccino and Seunghyun's lips are inextricably linked.
If there's anyone to blame it's Seunghyun-hyung himself, who ignored the script without any warning whatsoever beforehand.
Like: 'I'm going to kiss you out of nowhere and it's going to be on the mouth, not the cheek.'
Or: 'I'm going to lick the foam from your lips and you're going to like it.'
And: 'There might be tongue.'
Not that might is an accurate word choice here, because he's pretty sure there was tongue.
And also, the 'You're going to like it' bit is rather ambiguous, because though he might not have actively disliked it, that's not to say he liked it.
Much.
For example, TOP's lips had been chapped, it being February and his lips always being chapped that time of year. It didn't feel unpleasant -- rather nice actually -- but not that nice.
Also the way Seunghyun's hands had felt so strong, clasped around his own and then lifting his chin... that could probably also count as a reason for disliking the kiss. Well, personally he had rather enjoyed that aspect (in an non-creepy way) but, you know.
Objectively speaking Seunghyun did have nice hands.
And lips.
Mmm.
"What are you smiling about?"
Jiyong spits out his coffee (coffee? why was he drinking coffee?) as the very same Seunghyun sits down in the seat opposite him.
His face looks a little bit alarmed, but mostly amused, which is probably due to his dongsaeng spilling drinks all over the place.
"Nothing," Jiyong coughs, "I just -- coffee," as if that explains everything. Well, it sort of does.
Seunghyung smiles.
"There's a little something on your face."
"Eh?"
"Seunghyun indicates the spot at his right mouth corner. Jiyong lifts a finger. There's some foam there.
"That reminds me of something," Seunghyun says, voice laced with a particular kind of amusement.
And suddenly -- it's deja vu all over.