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I should have expected things to happen this way. But I didn't. And now it's all a big shock. So much of a shock that I feel like breaking down in tears. But I won't...I refuse. I'm stronger than that...I hope.
It's kinda sad when you realize that you have only three really good friends. It seems that even when I make the strongest effort I possibly could, it fails the worst. I've realized that aside from those three people, everyone else only talks to me when no one else is around. I always thought I was a good friend, but I guess I was mistaken.
Although Kenny annoys me, he understands me. He understands how I work, he understands how I feel. He knows what really bothers me, he knows what makes me cry. He knows everything about me. Who else can say that they know me inside and out? No one. Except maybe my mom. Tim, he is my savior during periods 1 and 2 and he always tells me to smile...which makes me smile. Our friendship is really forming. He is one awesome "Oreo" He finally understands that I can't just break up with Ken. He is one of the few people that can actually make me smile. Liz...Although I hardly see her, she knows what I'm going through with Ken and she helps me as much as possible. When we do see each other we have awesome talks but we hardly see each other once a day...when we do it's normally in guidance.
By the end of this year probably everyone will hate me. Prom is going to suck because I'm going with Ken...maybe Tim can steal me away for a little while. He said he would take me out of town so I wouldn't be so stressed...he's such a sweety.
Well...loads of homework is calling my name and tomorrow I'm babysitting until like 3am. Busy weekend.
Saturday- D'Youville 11am-2:15 and then I'm going to look for a dress
Sunday- I'm taking my mom to sign me up for a gym membership so I can lose these nasty pounds.
It's kinda sad when you realize that you have only three really good friends. It seems that even when I make the strongest effort I possibly could, it fails the worst. I've realized that aside from those three people, everyone else only talks to me when no one else is around. I always thought I was a good friend, but I guess I was mistaken.
Although Kenny annoys me, he understands me. He understands how I work, he understands how I feel. He knows what really bothers me, he knows what makes me cry. He knows everything about me. Who else can say that they know me inside and out? No one. Except maybe my mom. Tim, he is my savior during periods 1 and 2 and he always tells me to smile...which makes me smile. Our friendship is really forming. He is one awesome "Oreo" He finally understands that I can't just break up with Ken. He is one of the few people that can actually make me smile. Liz...Although I hardly see her, she knows what I'm going through with Ken and she helps me as much as possible. When we do see each other we have awesome talks but we hardly see each other once a day...when we do it's normally in guidance.
By the end of this year probably everyone will hate me. Prom is going to suck because I'm going with Ken...maybe Tim can steal me away for a little while. He said he would take me out of town so I wouldn't be so stressed...he's such a sweety.
Well...loads of homework is calling my name and tomorrow I'm babysitting until like 3am. Busy weekend.
Saturday- D'Youville 11am-2:15 and then I'm going to look for a dress
Sunday- I'm taking my mom to sign me up for a gym membership so I can lose these nasty pounds.