Where is my life heading?
I am trying to figure out what is going on in my life as it ends the semester and in all reality I have no clue where I want to go or what I want to do. I just want to move on from Platteville. I know I'm going to miss this place, but this is definitely not the place I need to be right now. I need to move away and gain access to my life again. I knew moving here was definitely going to be a change and I loved that I came here but I now know that I need to move on.
I think after next year, having been here for a while and not graduating from college yet, that I am ready to move on to a different place. Leah, Renee and I have been looking at a really cool place called Costa Mesa, CA. We found it, it is located pretty awesomely. It is 35 mins away from Los Angeles and 80 miles away from San Diego, how perfect is that? And its not a huge city, but its big enough for me to live in and Leah actually really likes it so far, so I dont feel as alone in wanting to move out there.
So I have actually decided for sure that I will be taking a break with guys in my life right now. I am not opening myself up to anyone new because I am deathly afraid of getting hurt and letting someone in my life. I just need to breath and back this shit up. Actually, you know what I realized, tha I push everyone close to me away. Two really great guys in my life, that really liked me and could see themselves with me and I passed them by.
I know I just said that I'm quitting guys, I just wanted to vent (the good kind) about a cool guy I met. For the first time ever looks do not even matter to me. I have not compared him to Mike either (Leah pointed that out). That has to count for something right? Its the first time I haven't thought about something like that. Wow... I guess I shouldn't overanalyze anything, we'll just see what happens. Anyways I hope you all have a great night.
I think after next year, having been here for a while and not graduating from college yet, that I am ready to move on to a different place. Leah, Renee and I have been looking at a really cool place called Costa Mesa, CA. We found it, it is located pretty awesomely. It is 35 mins away from Los Angeles and 80 miles away from San Diego, how perfect is that? And its not a huge city, but its big enough for me to live in and Leah actually really likes it so far, so I dont feel as alone in wanting to move out there.
So I have actually decided for sure that I will be taking a break with guys in my life right now. I am not opening myself up to anyone new because I am deathly afraid of getting hurt and letting someone in my life. I just need to breath and back this shit up. Actually, you know what I realized, tha I push everyone close to me away. Two really great guys in my life, that really liked me and could see themselves with me and I passed them by.
I know I just said that I'm quitting guys, I just wanted to vent (the good kind) about a cool guy I met. For the first time ever looks do not even matter to me. I have not compared him to Mike either (Leah pointed that out). That has to count for something right? Its the first time I haven't thought about something like that. Wow... I guess I shouldn't overanalyze anything, we'll just see what happens. Anyways I hope you all have a great night.