*sigh*

[sniperhisaki]

I hate my job.I hate my job so much that when I leave there I am so tense.It creates so much anger in me..and anger I thought wasn't there anymore.I know I've always had emotional issues..who doesn't being raised in a house full of boys that were aggressive/abusive towards me but...I thought I had put most of it behind me but unfortunatly it is surfacing the more I get jerked around at A&W.I'm feeling the isolation again ..the feeling like I have no friends even though I have so many wonderfull friends.I'm feeling both physically and emotionally drained..I go to bed tired and wake up tired..sick to the stomach in the mornings ..I can feel acid rising up in my throat all the time,shoulkder and back pain and my ear...oh god how it hurts like all the time and I know part of it is from clenching my jaw so much and grinding my teeth *sigh* and my eye...one half of my right eye is all red from blood vessels breaking.I think it's stress..the M.D. Doctor thingy online says it's a brain tumor ..so I guess I'll see what my real doctor says today ...

all I know is that I'm so tired..and my brain keeps telling myself "I can't do this anymore" so many dark thoughts...so little light.Perfect for the weather huh ?