pretty tired of it
I get told a few times that you need to look forward to something, hope for something, ect. Yeah you're right it's good to hope however it seems like every fucking time I want something and look forward to it for a long time it just falls through. After a while I start to see a pattern, if I want something it fails and I get nothing. Is that not a realistic way of looking at it? I mean really how many fucking times do I have to be disappointed before I get the hint, it's fucking great that people get their way or at least get whatever they are hoping for but god...I can only take so much.