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baby i jsut dont know what to do anymore
i know ive failed myself many times but its like for some reason i really really wanna try this time
i feel like no one understands what im goin throught but damn this is fuckin hard and then wehn you add all the emotions i have goin on right now i just dont know what to do anymore
i want to be loved i want someone to care about me and treat me right. i wanna be shown respect but at the smae time i want to be treated like shit i wanna get beated up i wanna be taken advantage of because that's what i have come to known
my eye is fuckin itchy n i jsut smeared all my eyeliner all over my face
is this what you want baby am i your angel now? am i still so great and beautiful now?
you make me feel like i have to live up to this high standard but im used to setting my own standards and feeling like shit once i miss themm by a long way
i cause myself to much stress
maybe im really not mature enough to have a real relationship with anyone
i know you should think of me as crap cause thats what i really am. the few peopel that have seen a side of the real me know how sad and upset and depreseed and pathetic i really am
this isnt some pity plea so dont even try to comfort me anymore
and for once i really want to be cared about not in a friendship way and not in the way where i get fucked over a million n a half times and then come beggin back for more
you need to make up your damn mind and figure out what you want and then tell me what it is and stop telling me what i just want to hear god damn i hate that shit
i hate being cheated on. either in the literal way or in the friendship way when someone takes advantage of you.
yes i know i fuckin contradict myself but its not my damn fault
i really do need help but the one person i can call aint around
big fuckin surprise huh
dont that always seem to happen to everyone
mother bitches
we're goin out to the other bar now i guess so ill ramble on some more later. and shit
i love you in the only way i possibly can
and if you break my fuckin heart well fuck it..it'll just be broken agian nuthin new. you'll just prove you really aint different
i love my friends who read this shit
comment if you feel like it if not thats cool too
ill see most of you in a few weeks sorry about bein so distant during the summer months :p
"every rose has it's thorn" - poison
i know ive failed myself many times but its like for some reason i really really wanna try this time
i feel like no one understands what im goin throught but damn this is fuckin hard and then wehn you add all the emotions i have goin on right now i just dont know what to do anymore
i want to be loved i want someone to care about me and treat me right. i wanna be shown respect but at the smae time i want to be treated like shit i wanna get beated up i wanna be taken advantage of because that's what i have come to known
my eye is fuckin itchy n i jsut smeared all my eyeliner all over my face
is this what you want baby am i your angel now? am i still so great and beautiful now?
you make me feel like i have to live up to this high standard but im used to setting my own standards and feeling like shit once i miss themm by a long way
i cause myself to much stress
maybe im really not mature enough to have a real relationship with anyone
i know you should think of me as crap cause thats what i really am. the few peopel that have seen a side of the real me know how sad and upset and depreseed and pathetic i really am
this isnt some pity plea so dont even try to comfort me anymore
and for once i really want to be cared about not in a friendship way and not in the way where i get fucked over a million n a half times and then come beggin back for more
you need to make up your damn mind and figure out what you want and then tell me what it is and stop telling me what i just want to hear god damn i hate that shit
i hate being cheated on. either in the literal way or in the friendship way when someone takes advantage of you.
yes i know i fuckin contradict myself but its not my damn fault
i really do need help but the one person i can call aint around
big fuckin surprise huh
dont that always seem to happen to everyone
mother bitches
we're goin out to the other bar now i guess so ill ramble on some more later. and shit
i love you in the only way i possibly can
and if you break my fuckin heart well fuck it..it'll just be broken agian nuthin new. you'll just prove you really aint different
i love my friends who read this shit
comment if you feel like it if not thats cool too
ill see most of you in a few weeks sorry about bein so distant during the summer months :p
"every rose has it's thorn" - poison