i am sick, but besides that, i think im ok
yeah...so, i think i'm gonna b ok, shaken n saddened, but i'm not dead yet...but i just dont kno what 2 do this whats left of what i have...should i leave it rest or jump in again n c how much more i can take...confusion doubles its rations and takes its ground 2 hold me down in no mans land, lost in the middle of my life...i am not crumbled, only nicked up from loss after loss, but thats alright, cause i think it'll all b all rite sumday...and even tho my heart has broken itself, possibly beyond repair, i kno sum1 will come along and hold it in their hand, kiss it softly and put it back in place...i dont kno when it will b, that my love will come for me, i kno it is no time soon, because i am surrounded by every1 that has failed me in this, but taken me up in friendship 2 try and ease the pain...but only true love can take it all away, and even tho it will come some day, i will just have 2 sit and wait, until i can meet my true fate.
well, thats about how i'm feeling rite now...i dont kno if i should take a seat on the bench or go back up 2 bat w/ sum other girl that mite end up throwing me out at 1st base like always, becuz i perch there like a crow at that spot, afraid 2 move ne further past the "pre-dating"...n when i lead off a little bit 2 make a dash 4 asking her out, but it always amounts 2 nothing, and fast, lol....
but yeah...all i got in my head rite now is 3 things...1)girls-should i just give up completely until i feel like im in the rite position 2 come back in or should i jumsp back in n either succeed 4 once or go crashing down again...2)sick- i am sick, it is no fun, i'm trying brians method of drinking lots of o.j. n water n trying 2 pee a lot, i hope it works, lol...3)band-yeah, dont kno what direction 2 take rite now, i guess i'll just c what happens, cuz i kno of 1 option i could do that i can just take sum1's place, or i could start a new band, but i wouldnt kno who 2 take in, or stick w/ justin n anna n c if things start heading in a more positive direction...so many questions n its soo hard 2 think when i feel like crap...so i'm gonna go listen 2 sum music n fall asleep.
friends=love
music=love
guitar=love
new amp?=love
what else = love...idk, u tell me, : )
well, thats about how i'm feeling rite now...i dont kno if i should take a seat on the bench or go back up 2 bat w/ sum other girl that mite end up throwing me out at 1st base like always, becuz i perch there like a crow at that spot, afraid 2 move ne further past the "pre-dating"...n when i lead off a little bit 2 make a dash 4 asking her out, but it always amounts 2 nothing, and fast, lol....
but yeah...all i got in my head rite now is 3 things...1)girls-should i just give up completely until i feel like im in the rite position 2 come back in or should i jumsp back in n either succeed 4 once or go crashing down again...2)sick- i am sick, it is no fun, i'm trying brians method of drinking lots of o.j. n water n trying 2 pee a lot, i hope it works, lol...3)band-yeah, dont kno what direction 2 take rite now, i guess i'll just c what happens, cuz i kno of 1 option i could do that i can just take sum1's place, or i could start a new band, but i wouldnt kno who 2 take in, or stick w/ justin n anna n c if things start heading in a more positive direction...so many questions n its soo hard 2 think when i feel like crap...so i'm gonna go listen 2 sum music n fall asleep.
friends=love
music=love
guitar=love
new amp?=love
what else = love...idk, u tell me, : )