that's just my philosophy....
son of a gun. I'm behind on everything. Until next Saturday, April 21, I will be a ghost. a shadow in everyone's memory. because finals week plus my thesis defense are kicking my butt. I am procrastinating right now and I don't know how to stop. I just want to be done. right now.
to change the subject a bit, I am frustrated that so few people can understand what I am trying to do with my personal life. I mean, disagree with it if you want to, but at least try to see where I'm coming from....just a little bit. It's not that I'm looking for approval. I know so many people say this but I actually MEAN it: I could really give a crap if people agree with my decisions. What I think is most important when it comes to my life because I'm the one who has to live it. duh. But don't judge because you will not sway me, just make me realize that I have to distance mmyself from you. this is not aimed at one person specifically, but it has come to my attention this last semester that Alma College is a lot like junior high. let's all meet in the girls' bathroom after lunch and gossip about everyone. we're supposed to be adults. we're supposed to be past that. but maybe that's just idealistic of me. however, in Philly it wasn't. it's different in the grown up world I am entering. I mean, it won't go away completely but it will be better.
and I'm having fun. the last thing I want in this world is commitment or a relationship. Anyone that knows me even a little knows that I'm being honest, not just saying that and then looking for a boyfriend. relationship. ugh. not for me. not right now. not in the near future for sure. I just want to have fun. so I will :) All my friends tell me I am the emotional equivalent of a man. It's true :)
to change the subject a bit, I am frustrated that so few people can understand what I am trying to do with my personal life. I mean, disagree with it if you want to, but at least try to see where I'm coming from....just a little bit. It's not that I'm looking for approval. I know so many people say this but I actually MEAN it: I could really give a crap if people agree with my decisions. What I think is most important when it comes to my life because I'm the one who has to live it. duh. But don't judge because you will not sway me, just make me realize that I have to distance mmyself from you. this is not aimed at one person specifically, but it has come to my attention this last semester that Alma College is a lot like junior high. let's all meet in the girls' bathroom after lunch and gossip about everyone. we're supposed to be adults. we're supposed to be past that. but maybe that's just idealistic of me. however, in Philly it wasn't. it's different in the grown up world I am entering. I mean, it won't go away completely but it will be better.
and I'm having fun. the last thing I want in this world is commitment or a relationship. Anyone that knows me even a little knows that I'm being honest, not just saying that and then looking for a boyfriend. relationship. ugh. not for me. not right now. not in the near future for sure. I just want to have fun. so I will :) All my friends tell me I am the emotional equivalent of a man. It's true :)