Some men want to watch the world burn
I believe that after making a few posts recently i have figured out what i live for. I know that there are people out there who do it for love. There are those who do it for money. Hippies do it for weed. Nymphos do it for sex. I believe i found what gets me up day after day. Anger. Rage. Chaos. The more and more my life continues i seem to realize that what i live for is for the random shit that can go wrong. The fact that i can piss someone off usually makes me crack a smile. Destroying shit and punching things releases me in ways that nothing else can. And as for chaos, well just the way i live my life is chaotic enough to get me through. I party, yea because drinking numbs me, but the more i look at it, with my specific brand of friends the drinking is related to not knowing how it is all going to end. You don't know what is going to happen. Who will fight, what get's torn up or stolen, who will pass out first. All you know for sure is that shit will be a complete mess the next morning and you won't remember much of it. The thing that i'm great at is that if i can keep certain people at a distance i can live my carefree, anger filled, chaotic life. However, certain people have a way of bringing me back to earth and realizing that i care about them and that living the way i do will inevitably mean that i will have to live without them. I say screw it though, they don't want me anyway. So the point is to live it up. "Some men aren't looking for anything logical, like money. They can't be bought, bullied, reasoned or negotiated with. Some men just want to watch the world burn." I'm gonna start taking people down to my level from now on because i honestly no longer give a fuck.