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How stupid I must be to still sleep beside a bottle of you
of mimosa and sweat
knowing you and I are miles away
and you do not love me passionately
I was a girl you fucked
But hope is a parasite and I am a romantic
to pleasure oneself is the true freedom
To pleasure oneself and to be unafraid
The woman who knows her pleasure is the feminine freed
She loves herself and in return is loved
for who she is
none of this bullshit
hours in the gym new clothing
that lifestyle is for people who do not know what to do with their money
who subscribe to prescriptions of beauty
I have wasted years of my life
on this prescription of unhappiness
and when I was youngest and pure and in love I believed I was ugly
I poisoned my own relationships
through my perceptions
through my lack of love
On some days I think of all the stupid bitches
who appear on my facebook feed
married
with children
it is another prescription
Do your husbands give you pleasure
never bored for a moment
faithful, they must be
unlike me
I was not meant for prescriptions
Sometimes people see me and they pity me
but I pity them
arent people your age getting married?
they say
they marry
get fat
and go to the gym
sweethearts
don't pity me
I may have no ring
but I have a dildo
And I know how to use it
I may have no husband to pay the bills
but I have a masters degree that I earned myself
I may have no children to kiss goodnight
But I give birth to new ideas everyday and on some days,
the things I see in my dreams
are made in the flesh
displayed against white washed gallery walls
I weep on some days
for all the men and women I have loved and lost
I weep for the silence that they leave behind
The only way to be happy is to seek pleasure
and live unashamed
Time will not destroy your enemies
but time will help you forget
And life will teach you,
that the only person worth knowing is yourself
this is the only way to be
real
and true in this world
Everyone else you meet
from the moment of your awakening
will either fail or pass the test
you will merely look into their eyes
and know that they are bullshit
I have no time for bullshit
I have no time for haters
I have already wasted my life on worrying about what they think
I have no time for bitches who insult me
but secretly burn with jealousy
for I am the feminine freed
I have no chains.
of mimosa and sweat
knowing you and I are miles away
and you do not love me passionately
I was a girl you fucked
But hope is a parasite and I am a romantic
to pleasure oneself is the true freedom
To pleasure oneself and to be unafraid
The woman who knows her pleasure is the feminine freed
She loves herself and in return is loved
for who she is
none of this bullshit
hours in the gym new clothing
that lifestyle is for people who do not know what to do with their money
who subscribe to prescriptions of beauty
I have wasted years of my life
on this prescription of unhappiness
and when I was youngest and pure and in love I believed I was ugly
I poisoned my own relationships
through my perceptions
through my lack of love
On some days I think of all the stupid bitches
who appear on my facebook feed
married
with children
it is another prescription
Do your husbands give you pleasure
never bored for a moment
faithful, they must be
unlike me
I was not meant for prescriptions
Sometimes people see me and they pity me
but I pity them
arent people your age getting married?
they say
they marry
get fat
and go to the gym
sweethearts
don't pity me
I may have no ring
but I have a dildo
And I know how to use it
I may have no husband to pay the bills
but I have a masters degree that I earned myself
I may have no children to kiss goodnight
But I give birth to new ideas everyday and on some days,
the things I see in my dreams
are made in the flesh
displayed against white washed gallery walls
I weep on some days
for all the men and women I have loved and lost
I weep for the silence that they leave behind
The only way to be happy is to seek pleasure
and live unashamed
Time will not destroy your enemies
but time will help you forget
And life will teach you,
that the only person worth knowing is yourself
this is the only way to be
real
and true in this world
Everyone else you meet
from the moment of your awakening
will either fail or pass the test
you will merely look into their eyes
and know that they are bullshit
I have no time for bullshit
I have no time for haters
I have already wasted my life on worrying about what they think
I have no time for bitches who insult me
but secretly burn with jealousy
for I am the feminine freed
I have no chains.