the beginning of the end
So last night we had the first wake for my uncle. It was so horrible. I've never seen my loved ones so sad... ever. My aunt Wendy couldn't even come because she was physically sick. I feel sick just knowing that.
The girls came though, thank God. They lifted my spirits (yet again)and by the end of the night, I was laughing. Those three... they're the best.
Tonight will be tougher I think. The lack of support from my mom and my best friends, it's good that Cam will be with me. Tonight Wendy is coming. I'm so afraid to see her. I'm probably staying at Justins tonight too. He's not doing well with this. We're all not doing so well with it. In fact, Tim's death has brought out our true feelings and anamosity towards particular family members. We simply don't understand how grown adults can be so completely inconsiderate at a time when their loved ones need them the most. All I can say is that this Christmas will be tense.
So I have to start studying, although my exams are pushed back, I pretty much write all of them on the same day so I should be prepared I suppose.
I'll write agian later,
Mel
The girls came though, thank God. They lifted my spirits (yet again)and by the end of the night, I was laughing. Those three... they're the best.
Tonight will be tougher I think. The lack of support from my mom and my best friends, it's good that Cam will be with me. Tonight Wendy is coming. I'm so afraid to see her. I'm probably staying at Justins tonight too. He's not doing well with this. We're all not doing so well with it. In fact, Tim's death has brought out our true feelings and anamosity towards particular family members. We simply don't understand how grown adults can be so completely inconsiderate at a time when their loved ones need them the most. All I can say is that this Christmas will be tense.
So I have to start studying, although my exams are pushed back, I pretty much write all of them on the same day so I should be prepared I suppose.
I'll write agian later,
Mel