I've got almost the entire collection. All I'm missing is Jack the Ripper and that Zodiac guy.
About an hour before we need to be at the church for my sister's wedding. I'm basically posting because I have little else to do.
Last night was interesting. I had the rehearsal dinner at KT's on Lexington. It was an odd experience where Domhoff (the priest who's doing the service) made it open court for anyone to speak about the bride and the groom. I said my two cents, and then everyone joined in, tears were shed, and hugs were exchanged. I felt like a dick for leaving early to go to Phil's, but a man's gotta do what a man's gotta do. One might ask what was I going to do, but I'm not that one.
Then I went to Phil's where I got to hang out with Megan McDonald, Lindsey Wise, her boyfriend Mike, and the moron twins until about two thirty in the morning. The evening ended on an unsettling note as Lindsey (very much innebriated) gave me a spellbindingly passionate kiss with permission of her boyfriend before I left. It was definitely surprising. I felt lousy because he got really pissed off and I felt like I might have broken them up, but I found out from Phil today that he was ultimately okay.
So my sister's about to get married. I don't know what it is about this whole situation that is affecting me so much. It isn't really the notion of my sister becoming grown up and getting married and having children and things growing beyond our little four person cluster. I guess it signals to me that that type of thing is what is expected from people. It makes me nervous because you never know when this might happen to you, but seeing my future brother in law and the way that all his friends are there for him and the way my sister's friends are there for her, makes me kind of happily anticipatory. I feel like there's a very happy future ahead for all of us. That that will be us in each other's weddings. That this will continue with our group of friends. It's just weird to see this kind of love materialize into a real bond. It doesn't make you lonely as much as it makes you hopeful; this type of thing is possible, and each of us should search for it everyday of our lives.
But it's also a signal that adult responsiblilty lurks right around the corner. It tells me that I'm 21 years old, and that there is reason to believe that things will get better, but that there will also be more obligation, and that there are responsibilities out there that one might not be ready for. It's scary when something like this happens to someone close to you, because it lets you know how it isn't that far off from becoming an object of your attention. But I guess one just has to wait.
All right, time to go off to the first wedding my immediate family will have. Of course it's the best looking one that goes first. Nobody say a fuckin word.
Goin to the chapel and we're gonna get married.
Last night was interesting. I had the rehearsal dinner at KT's on Lexington. It was an odd experience where Domhoff (the priest who's doing the service) made it open court for anyone to speak about the bride and the groom. I said my two cents, and then everyone joined in, tears were shed, and hugs were exchanged. I felt like a dick for leaving early to go to Phil's, but a man's gotta do what a man's gotta do. One might ask what was I going to do, but I'm not that one.
Then I went to Phil's where I got to hang out with Megan McDonald, Lindsey Wise, her boyfriend Mike, and the moron twins until about two thirty in the morning. The evening ended on an unsettling note as Lindsey (very much innebriated) gave me a spellbindingly passionate kiss with permission of her boyfriend before I left. It was definitely surprising. I felt lousy because he got really pissed off and I felt like I might have broken them up, but I found out from Phil today that he was ultimately okay.
So my sister's about to get married. I don't know what it is about this whole situation that is affecting me so much. It isn't really the notion of my sister becoming grown up and getting married and having children and things growing beyond our little four person cluster. I guess it signals to me that that type of thing is what is expected from people. It makes me nervous because you never know when this might happen to you, but seeing my future brother in law and the way that all his friends are there for him and the way my sister's friends are there for her, makes me kind of happily anticipatory. I feel like there's a very happy future ahead for all of us. That that will be us in each other's weddings. That this will continue with our group of friends. It's just weird to see this kind of love materialize into a real bond. It doesn't make you lonely as much as it makes you hopeful; this type of thing is possible, and each of us should search for it everyday of our lives.
But it's also a signal that adult responsiblilty lurks right around the corner. It tells me that I'm 21 years old, and that there is reason to believe that things will get better, but that there will also be more obligation, and that there are responsibilities out there that one might not be ready for. It's scary when something like this happens to someone close to you, because it lets you know how it isn't that far off from becoming an object of your attention. But I guess one just has to wait.
All right, time to go off to the first wedding my immediate family will have. Of course it's the best looking one that goes first. Nobody say a fuckin word.
Goin to the chapel and we're gonna get married.