"Do you have the time..."
I'm home. Alone again. I had a really good time this weekend. Better than last year. I talked to the people I wanted to talk to and hungout with people I wanted to hangout with...for the most part. I only wish everyone had had a good time and I feel bad for not knowing how to help, or being to selfish to...I don't really know which, anyway, I'm sorry.
I feel like giving up on out of town friendships; I know they're worth it's just, after awhile it feels like, what's the point? I'm in a pesimistic, nothing mood and I can't get out of it.
Like Christina said: being around everyone at the conference makes me not want to go to school even more. Abunch of people are telling me to go, and then in the same breath telling me how much their not looking forward to the end of summer and school starting. I don't know, I'll probably start and drop right away. Maybe it's an experience I should have just to sastisfy my curiousity. I don't want to go. I don't really mind being "sheltered" at the moment.
It was so refreshing to be with the people at the conference. Everyone there seemed so...real, I don't know why. I miss you.
My life is blah. Everything I thought was important to has been pushed to the back of my and been replaced by questions in the moment like, if we're out of peach apple sauce or not. I'm 'sposed to be thinking about my future and decided what my priorities are, when I can't even begin to think what my plans for the next day are going to be.
"Don't you want to have a future?" not at the moment. I want to be around interesting people and that's about it.
Well I have to go talk to my mom about what I want to with myself for the rest of the year. Fun.
I feel like giving up on out of town friendships; I know they're worth it's just, after awhile it feels like, what's the point? I'm in a pesimistic, nothing mood and I can't get out of it.
Like Christina said: being around everyone at the conference makes me not want to go to school even more. Abunch of people are telling me to go, and then in the same breath telling me how much their not looking forward to the end of summer and school starting. I don't know, I'll probably start and drop right away. Maybe it's an experience I should have just to sastisfy my curiousity. I don't want to go. I don't really mind being "sheltered" at the moment.
It was so refreshing to be with the people at the conference. Everyone there seemed so...real, I don't know why. I miss you.
My life is blah. Everything I thought was important to has been pushed to the back of my and been replaced by questions in the moment like, if we're out of peach apple sauce or not. I'm 'sposed to be thinking about my future and decided what my priorities are, when I can't even begin to think what my plans for the next day are going to be.
"Don't you want to have a future?" not at the moment. I want to be around interesting people and that's about it.
Well I have to go talk to my mom about what I want to with myself for the rest of the year. Fun.