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it's like she fucking strings me along on purpose, telling me she wants this, that, and the other thing, or doesn't want me to do something, then turns around and does it herself... like she says, "i don't want you out of my life!!!" but i'm only human and the way she acts makes me just want to say, "fuck it, fuck you, don't ever talk to me again" and i don't want to do that because i love her with all my heart and it would hurt too much... but i seriously don't need this childish stress and this childish back and forth of emotion and semantics... i don't fucking know what she wants, but alot of the time it feels like it's not me, but she can't bring herself to say it, so she pisses me off on purpose then says she doesn't try to... sometimes i believe she doesn't try to, but at the same time, she doesn't try not to... i'm at a breaking point and i'm going to snap... does she want that???