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i am having the worst headaches of my life for the past week. everyday. and i know what it's from and i'm wondering if i should even continue what i'm doing. I'm having second thoughts. but i don't know if i am feeling happier or what, or if anything has gone away. shitskie man. i have one friend who says i shouldn't be doing this. another who doesnt really agree with taking pills. my mom who says i should be on this. a doctor who doesnt remember me when i come in. i should be listening to myself and that's it. and i hung out with my friends the other night and felt completly out of place with them. it's like i don't belong with them anymore, and what i have to say doesn't concern them or have any bearing. when i say something im ignored. when i say something people start to talk over me. i was so close in saying that i forgot i had to do something at home and need to go. they have so much in common with one another and i have nothing with them. when we go to watch a movie, no one listens to what i want to see, or whatever. so i can't figure out what to do about my situation. i'm so happy around some friends and some im not. i dont like hanging out with people my own age because they seem so immature as it may seem, and i don't have the same things to talk about. like, oh how drunk i got 5 days in a row. it's just not interesting to me. and im not saying i'm "straight edge", or anything , because i do indulge once in a while, but i dont go out of the way to be super pissed every night. plus, people who are older then me have so much more interesting stories to listen to. anyways. enough of this random jibber.
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